Oldies
I suddenly feel like wanting to listen to some old songs.
I remember '关怀方式' and the telemovie that came out with it(or the other way round actually), and i missed that show. Though i can't remember it for the hell of me. But the song is classic la.
Btw, you know the lyrics are special right? I think its creatively done, cuz its like after singing one pargraph, Chen Han Wei actually sing the 2nd verse which is the reverse of the 1st verse, and it doesn't sound strange.
So anyone got eh mp3 to send me, and Bon Jovi's 'It's my life'? Feel like listening to the oldies.
Zzz
LIKE WTF?
Its sunday evening already?!
I din even got chance to slack la na bei.
No slack= i cranky.
I cranky= i wanna destroy humanity.
Sian la.
"I don't like how life throws the confetti at other people and i always get the bricks. Don't tell me I'm feeling like that because i'm a pessimist; fuck you, you get all the nice things in life and you can happily take your time, of course you'll say life is beautifully nice."
With each passing day the pressure of work increases. With so much of it, its hard to rein in my nature of running away, into the comforts of relaxation.
And so, into the far reaches of my imagination i had dwell, to seek solace from the harsh cold of the cruel realities. Yet with each further step I take into the heavens, the pain of falling back to reality doubles.
Ego
This week has been quite a difficult week for me.
I know I'm not good at studying, but when a teacher chose you to go so for many extra lessons it get a bit more to-your-face and direct. So its kinda demoralizing.
I can be positive and tell myself it can be part of revision, but that's not an integrated part of me so usually halfway through such lessons i'll phase out and really think through what my worth is.
Plus the not-so-good test results which I am supposed to do better. Its been heavier; and next week is going to be even worse.
Maybe i can take some comfort in the notion that I'm not the only one with the stress getting to the head.
Me and my ego. Zzz.
Bored
Phew.
I think she got knocked out for explicit content.
SI
Sad. Once i heard that the theme was jazz i knew Jasmine gonna screw up again. And she did. Nvm, she still look gorgeous.
The theme was jazz, so the performance throughout was just boring. Not them, just that I am like a jazz-idiot or something. I fall asleep if i listen to jazz or classical, and when i thought the singer was flat it turned out to be part of the song, and when i thought the singer sounded normal he was actually singing it wrong?
Jazz is for cool people; no wonder.
But i like Bossa Nova, sounds jazzy but not boring. Strange eh.
Something uncorrelated, I think tonight's SI was damn farni-ok, actually only just Emilee's part. Let me explain.
The song Emilee sang called "Making Whoopee" has a sexy theme to it. So, making whoopee means... er, something naughty. How naughty i shall cease to elaborate, but her performance plus the song did put me into the mood.
The funny part came, when one of the judges asked her why she had the stick with her for the performance. She replied nonchalantly that she likes to play with sticks.
*er-hem*
To top it off, when Gurmit asked how she feel, she replied, trying to make a pun with her stick, saying that she feels sticky.
*er-hem**er-hem*
WHAT? I just thought her usage of words funny cannot ar? What you thinking?
If you can't make the connection, well, good for you. The dirt of growing up has yet to stain onto you, YET, hahahz.
Or was i the only one who did make the connection?!
HGF
Going by the traditional lunar calendar, today is the start of the Hungry Ghost Festival!!!
I better avoid going out at night.
Later scare people very jia lat.
Yoga rocks.
Pek cek, Blogger keeps screwing up on me; and its only when accessing my blog and the homepage nia.
Yoga is absolutely the best man.
We're doing it for the teachers wad.
I am absolutely ok with me doing yoga mass display for the teachers on Teacher's Day to set world record. All the teacher's would be so excited to see their students do yoga mass display for world record. They know the students are doing for them ma, not for world record de...
I am absolutely ok with standing under the hot sun to do yoga to prepare for the display for the world record. Yoga cools the mind right? So stand under sun sweat like pig also nvm, cool the mind ma. Besides, its for the teachers on Teacher's Day, not just world record right? Anything for the teachers man...
I am absolutely ok with spending that precious time on doing yoga in order to set record for the school when my prelims are coming. One hour only ma, can do what? Haiyo, yoga mass display to satisfy the teachers' thrist to see students do yoga more important...
The school gets the attention for the wrong things. Won't you agree?
Reality check
Like most students, I get lost whenever i try to think about my future.
The fact is that i do not belong to this place. I'm not the studious type, as seen with my span of concentrations and results; neither am i the artistic type since i know nuts about art and music; and obviously not the showbiz type. I really had seriously thought that maybe if i can sing and not look so ordinary i could try the SI or Campus Superstar kinda thing. Sadly, I'm not.
So here i am, trapped in the middle. Neither this nor that, even if I had able to get into a Uni, it'll be like my JC; scoring average grades and getting into an average Uni. Then graduate with the avreage 2nd class degree then get an average job with average pay. If luck is on my side, perhaps i'll marry an average wife and eventually die an average death.
Big words like, 'I do not want to live an average life' or 'I will not be average if i try hard enough' doesn't apply to people without skills.
The fact is with sheer optimism, determination, and nothing else, brings you nowhere. All those if-you-persist-you'll-succeed kind of crap seems so true because we always and only hear the successful cases. If the theory is true then the society should be filled with successful people; because I seriously don't think only those few cases of 'I persist so i succeed' are the only ones trying hard.
There are a lot of hardworking people in this world who believe in themselves, there's only a handful who succeeded because there is a hidden potential in them that they managed to dig out. The remaining ones can only stay on the grounds while others soar, because they don't have the hidden potential.
It's a damn cruel world out there, whether i want it or not.
I'll just have to go with the flow, and wait for it to bring me to the waterfall.
I don't believe in all those hopeful theories because what I always see on tv does not reflect what happens; that's why i'm so sick and tired of tv serials with happy endings despite having watched those for like 10 yrs le. Wasting my time on things that'll never happen when the time can be used more effectively seems so sinful.
Zzz.
"We always like to offer empty words of comfort to people, even when we don't know squat about their situation."
-Kenny Sia
I went to Pizza Hut to takeaway some nice pizzas back to feast on.
Just when i was telling the waitress my order. I SAW HER START TO CRY.
Her tears just flowed but still, smiling at me and repeating my order. I have absolutely no idea why she is crying, quite a shock to me as well, but here are some of my speculations.
But i think all these are not as possible.
I think the most possible reason is:
I am too chio for her. So she cried.
Just joking. But she really was crying, throughout the entire time i waited for my order, and she continue to serve with a smile. Pei fu, pei fu.
Se7en
I feel like putting a bullet in my head.
Because I want to die but i don't want to; and since S'pore don't sell guns, shooting myself is simply just whining suicidal thoughts that will not come through.
How many weeks left? 7? Oh, what a nice number.
How about making a consensus with God, and let it stay at 7?
Oh.
"Oh how quickly life can turn around in an instant"
-Creed, 'My Sacrifice'
If that had escalated. I don't know whose side to be on.
The one doing his duty, or the target of a bad day.
Fucking life we have don't we?
Or its just mine.
SI
Ahhhh~ Jasmine looked like my grandma. Maybe not really but its juz OLD. I like the hair though.
Tonight's performance was nice, cuz most of the songs I know, except for Gayle's which i think she screwed up. Best was Jonathan's and Rahimah's. I loved Avril's 'I'm with you' and now i'm in love with the song again.
And i thought Hady's performance of Santana's 'Maria Maria' sounded like a Malay song. hahaz.
But its nice! Just that the beat sounded Malay. Not that i discriminate malays whatsoever.
Muhahahahaz.
I like how the world works.
You keep telling yourself, 'I am just a young and juvenile teenage idiot whining about the family when they are good to you in fact.'
The you realise you no longer show that black face to them. You no longer get pissed off(in front of them anyway) by them. Life just becomes somewhat a little kinder.
Then this blog becomes my tool for venting my frustration. I post whatever unhappiness there whenever i am on the edge of erupting, then i delete it when the anger boils off.
I get to vent my frustration and at the same time, not too vocal about what's happening.
Though the frequent numbers of that need is kind of disturbing.
Or maybe its just the spate of inspiring superhero movies i watched. Or i'm just turning girly. =X
触电
Ahhhhhhhhhh~*shrieks like xiao char bor* =)
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Pirates of the Caribbean
What do you do when you are staring at giant, supposedly-mythical sea monster known as the Kraken, and all you have is a sword?
Seriously, Pirates of the Currybean damn nice la. The show is so inspiring, even Superman couldn't inspire as much with that red underwear. The only thing i learnt from Superman is that the first rule to xian char bor is to learn how to fly. Pirates taught me far more stuff.
Therefore, I shall now model myself on Jack Sparrow, I mean, Captain, Jack Sparrow.
I will be despicable, vile, low-down, unhygenic, somewhat-sissy, cowardly(to a certain extent), don't-know-how-to-shut-up, lying, scheming.... Then some day, a pretty girl will finally kiss me...
Hopefully not tying me up after that, of course.
I wouldn't jump in even if i had a light sabre. Or superhuman strength. Or heat vision. Or ninjutsu skills.
笑
别人笑我太伤悲， 我笑他们看不穿。
别人笑我太悲观， 我笑他们天真呀。。。
Zzz.
This is the American version of the 'Slow dance'.
or listened to rain slapping the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight,
or gazed at the sun fading into the night?
You better slow down, don't dance so fast, time is short, the music won't last.
Do you run through each day on the fly,
when you ask "How are you?", do you hear the reply?
When the day is done, do you lie in your bed,
with the next hundred chores running through your head?
You better slow down, don't dance so fast, time is short, the music won't last.
Ever told your child, we'll do it tomorrow,
and in your haste, not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch, let a friendship die, 'cause you never had time to call and say hi?
You better slow down, don't dance so fast, time is short, the music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere, you miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day, it's like an unopened gift thrown away.
Life isn't a race, so take it slower, hear the music before your song is over.
-David L. Weatherford.
This is the bloody S'porean JC student's version.
or listened to rain slapping the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight,
or gazed at the sun fading into the night?
If you had, you better hurry up, cuz you've wasted time and your gonna fail your A levels.
Do you run through each day on the fly,
when you ask "How are you?", do you hear the reply?
When the day is done, do you lie in your bed,
with the next hundred chores running through your head?
If you had, you're damn right cuz time is scarce and you're gonna fail your A levels.
Ever told yourself, you'll revise tomorrow,
and in your laziness , you went to sleep instead?
Ever lost touch, missed out your SI units,
'cause you never had time to stop and check?
If you had, you're screwed, cuz you'll lose some marks and probably gonna fail your A levels.
When you run so slow to get somewhere, you miss out your A level cert.
When you worry and hurry through your day, you’re probably one step closer to your As.
Life is a damn race, so run like hell, study your notes before the exams are here...
I'm just sick of studying dammit.
Pointless
I challenge things that I am unable convince myself that its beneficial in any way.
Like how the notes of Singapore Concerns came across as NE instead of GP. With all due respect, we are S'poreans, is there a need to use the money to print out that stack of notes filled with S'pore things? I look at GP papers and think that yes, we need to refer back to S'pore in context(for reason we are all so clear why), but is it wise to spend that precious hours on doing revision on our own small country's issues?
Forgive me if I am sounding so whiny and practical. But face it, ace the A levels or sit on the lower rungs on the society; there is no room for ideals.
At least for now. For the stressed out S'porean students.
Hopefully i can convince myself somehow in the next few lessons. Otherwise the motivation is really absent.
I am getting darker day by day. And its not just the skin. That's what you have when you start enjoying being alone?
SI
I never used this word to describe a S'porean performer.
BUT GAYLE IS HOT!
But i stil don't like her blasting way of singing. I like this year's SI cuz got people with character and no Christopher-like louya singers. Maybe if Joakim go further in he wil become like that but that's for the future.
For the time being, JASMINE STILL ROCKS.
Though the hairstyle doesn't really suit her i think.
She still rox.
Enjoying...
the darkness.
the solitude.
the silence.
the happiness.
the weightless.
the pressure.
the beauty.
the abyss.
the choice.
the life.
Half-Time
2.52am:
ITALY SURE WIN LA.
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4.45am
France has 3 cannons; Ribery aka Scarface, Henry aka u-can't-c-my-legs, Zidane aka headbutter.
Coach decided that they are 2 dangerous and decided to move 2 of the cannons home. Perfect decision.
Then Zidane got unhappy over the italian player telling him that ITALIAN BREAD BETTER THAN YOUR FRENCH LOAVES.
Then he head-butts him.
He probably wanted his last match to be remembered as him being the greatest header.
France obviously owning on 2nd half. I guess Rock Lee is right; in battles, luck can be a factor as well.
Finals.
france vs italy.
WORLD CUP FINALS AR. Actually, I don't think the match is interesting. Cuz no kick lehz. So no-kick that i am unable to type the first sentence out with caps.
I mean.. If it were some other better team, then it would sound more spectacular ma. Like BRAZIL vs italy kinda thing? france vs italy is like... er, chen liping vs patricia mok, NOTHING TO SEE.
But BRAZIL VS ARGENTINA would be like saying BUSH VS OSAMA, got nuclear-like impact.
I'm not making sense. I'll watch it anyway. Since tomorrow school start late. Muahahahahz. I'll probably sleep overtime.People can't fight loneliness
-Gaara of the Desert
Sleeping~
I always thought JJ teachers don't set a good example for students.
They tell you to stand at attention during assembly and we see the King himself moving about.
They tell you to speak good English and we hear the King so-calling all the time.
They tell you to not sleep in lectures, and this is what we see.
Lala
I have always tried to seek...
-knowledge
-wisdom
-truth
-love
-beauty
But I havent found any yet.
Me too.
Knowledge and wisdom are but fleeting clouds. The truth is always hidden by the lies. Love is nothing but a moment of passion. Beauty is only skindeep.
Fight!
This is the very heavily censored and disgusting version of the Miri schoolgirl fight.
This is the damn funny one.
Chim~
As promised! A chim entry for you today to ponder over the mysteries of life.
Here goes!
Get ready...
My brain's beginning to work already....
Get 'yours ready cuz....
you're in for a big headache...
And the question is~~~~~
Why am I super chio?!!
OOPS
My neighbourhood is exciting la. Following the want-die-never-die incident, just today there is a case of a mad man(maybe not literally but he still is for doing tt) hurting 2 CIDs with a knife i think.
Wah kao, my neighbourhood already so dangerous with the possibility of falling bodies from above, urine in lifts that you might step on, destroyed notice boards which might cut you and the most terrible of all, the blardy roaches; now this joker come here cut our elite CID with a petty knife.
Later he terrorise this neighbourhood how ar? WHAT IF HE TARGET ME?! I super-chio lehz, later he see me he get excited then he....
OMG.
I need a pepper spray.
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Tomorrow you will find a dead body sprawled over the table of LT1. Because one person will be watching World Cup Semis without, and i shall repeat that, without sleeping since...er... 2am the previous morning.
I know I am renowned across the world for sleeping little, but i am now an old and fragile boy who will, almost certainly, die due to liver failure in the not-so-distant-future, so by doing that I could very well die one day earlier, which is tomorrow.
Why is Germany so far from us? Why not just hold World Cup in Jurong Stadium or Jurong East Sports Complex? Why Earth round? Earth flat then all the same timing le ma, why not?
Haiz. Why am i going to die so young? Why?
Why I super-chio? Why? Why?
I'm doing alot of out-of-point-sia(OOPS) posts lately. I will do a chim post tomorrow. Promise.
4am!
Here I am, blogging amidst the excitement of the World Cup Semis. I think Italy will win.
Life's been bad since common tests. Physics being a plus point for my unexpected pass, it just reminded me that i probab;y squandered my chance of getting good results for waking up late then.
BAH. Waking up late for a paper's a new experience and i don't think anyone else i know has done that, SO I AM SPECIAL.
I'm still very bothered by my spectacular chemistry results.
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(update)
Ooooof~
The inevitable has happened... But nevertheless, I think Italy deserved the win. Holding up the fort against Germany's lack-lustre attacks, the defence is god-like.
I was thinking Italy would stand a better chance against Germany if they are not going up against them for penalties, then the signs of a goal appeared and the player slowly dribbled the bal outside the penalty box, holding his cool and not shooting, then came the magnificent pass through the defenders and then the magical curl into the goal.
The second goal was less of skill and more of the German defenders giving up. And i was thinking "still got chance!" until the 2 Italians went into shooting range.
Pretty.
Woot.
Woot. Soccer tonight! Betta slp early.
AND I DID NOT FAIL PHYSICS, MUAHAHAHHAHAHAZ.
Idiot TT made me think i gone case.
Like wth?
Like wtf? 3 days gone like that.
Actually 3 days not very wasted la. Did some work(thanks to yesterday having hmwk mood, today no mood), got human-like hours of sleep, and caught up with some friends for dinner.
Of course, life's never empty with the occasional "You got 2 Fs" creeping up to your ears and whispering gently to remind you of your spectacular achievements and make sure your faith remains lost.
Killing me softly
Just returned home at 11 plus and realise that there was a small commotion at the void deck. Actually not very big la; about 3 fire engines, 5-6 mata qia and like 30 plus bystanders(estimated).
According to my mum, someone committed suicide. I thought that wasn't very accurate, cuz if there's a successful attempt then there isn't a need for all that hu-ha; just get the undertaker can liaoz. Maybe the cleaner along as well.
So, in conjunction with S'pore's coming birthday, i decided to fufil my task as a law-abiding and loyal citizen by going downstairs to see what's going on.
With my superb eavesdroppinginfo-gathering skills, it appears to be a young woman, probably just got dumped by her dunno-number-what boyfriend, attempting suicide. According to sources, firemen foiled the attempt by going on to the floor about the woman's house and somehow, prevented her from doing anything spectacular.
Usually, failed attempts of suicide are probably people wanting attention, except in a more dramatic way. if the person is really sincere(so strange to b using this word here) about killing him/herself, no one would be able to stop the person in time.
Right now i think the police are still here for god knows what reasons, but I guess this is a fortunate as the big name of the "first-person-to-kill-himself-in-this-neighbourhood" still remains unclaimed.
And no, I would not like to have that under my name.
Wtf?
YES~ I knew Brazil ain't gonna win much. hurhur
I woke up at 7am today.
I went to Mac to study till 10 plus.
Then i moved to library to study till 4 plus.
OMFG. WHAT DID I DO?!
The Italian
I'm not sure if it'll work for you, but its pretty darn funny for me.
Here is the text of the complaint letter which an Italiano tourist wrote to the Manager of a hotel in London.
Dear Signor Diretorre,
Now I am tella you the story how I was treated at your hotella.
I am comma from Palermo as tourist to London and stay as a young man at your hotella.
When I comma in my room I see no shit in my bed. How can I sleep with no shit in my bed?
I calla down the Receptione and tell: "I wanna shit".
They tella me, " Go to the toillett ".
I said, "You no understand. I wanna Shit in my bed ".
They said, "You betta not shit in your bed, you sonnawabitch".
Signor Diretorre, what is sonnawabitch?
I go down to ristorante for breakfast. I order bacona and eggs and two pisses of toast. I getta only one piss of toast.
I tella waitress and point to toast. "I wanna piss".
She tella me, "Go to the toillett".
I say, "You no understand. I wanna piss on my plate".
She then say to me, "You bloody fella better not piss on the plate, you sonnawabitch". Second person who do not even know me and call me sonnawabitch!
What is sonnawabitch?
Later I go dinner into restorante. Spoon and knife is laid but no fock.
I tella waitress " I wanna fock",
and she tella me, "Sure, everybody wanna fock".
I tell her, "You no understand. I wanna fock on the table".
She then tell me, "So you sonnawabitch, wanna fock on the table? Get your ass outa here!"
So I go to the receptione and ask for bills. I no wanna stay in your hotel no more.
When I have pay the bills, the porter say to me, "Thank you and piss be with you".
I say " Piss on you too, you sonnawabitch".
He looks unhappy and shows me his middle finger.
Why, Sinnor Directorre?
I go back to Italy! I never more comma stay in your hotella,
You Sonnawabitch!
Givonni
Lol. Now, here's the voice version.
Hatred
I hate flu.
Saps ur energy away.
