Collide
Even the best fall down sometimes.
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
Out of the doubt that fills my mind,
I somehow find, you and I collide
It's those moments of standing beside your father in front of the sewing machine do you realise how little life skills you actually have. It's those small instances when you struggle to cook up that meal which your mom always effortlessly cooks up do you realise maybe you're not that independant as you think.
It's more than just feeding yourself with an income; even more than just thinking maturely. It's behaving and living maturely that counts.
Siao liao loh
I'm glad I didn't make a molehill out of an ant's nest yesterday because if I did, I'll be making Everest today.
Apparently, this week is merely pre-ICT training. The real ICT comes after CNY.
I'm feeling so sexy right now that I don't even feel like saying why this ICT is bad for me.
Positive attitude weiyuan, S-T-A-Y P-O-S-I-T-I-V-E.
ICT
The reason why we hate the army is precisely because of its pure lack of common sense.
I kenna activated for ICT and they're expecting me to report tomorrow morning in full battle order, and I only got news of it half an hour ago.
I lub SAF dip dip.
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Just finished packing; amazing how fast one can be when under stressed. And I just know that the ICT doesn't involve everyone. Only 6 are chosen and it's a random-choosing thing.
If randomness is sexy then I'd possibly be one of the sexiest man alive.
原来我不帅
Now watching: 原来我不帅
It's kinda surprising that our very own JJ 林俊杰 is starring as the main lead and there's practically zero news in S'pore! No wonder people say that local media are not very supportive of our own artistes.
As for the show, I only knew of it cuz I happen to know that the actress who plays 晴依 in 不能说的秘密 plays the female lead in this one. But she isn't very chio in the show though.
Basically, it's about JJ, whom at the beginning thought he was a 帅哥 because everyone(actually, it was salesmen and/or people who were asking favours from him) kept saying he was, until he was rejected with the reason that he was too ugly. Pretty hilarious show but that's only because the first episode stuck pretty closely to the beginning of the novel so the funny antics was acted out.
Like how one of the guys tried to jio a girl by saying they used to be in the same school, then she said she was from a girls' school. Or how Nicky Lee bought guava for JJ to put on his fruit cake.Funniest was what JJ's dead granny said to him in his dream: “孙子啊， 阿麽有跟你讲过， 人如果长得越英俊， 责任就越重哦。。。 所以哦， 你这辈子啊， 会活得轻松又快活啦。”
Watching it feels like watching my own life unfold...
But of course, the difference is that while the lead character thinks that he's handsome when he's not, lim peh is handsome while I thought I'm not.
Serious.
The box
Was randomly watching the TV when I started watching The Eight Immortals on Channel 8. Kinda reminded me of the good old days when I was a 电视儿童 and where TV dramas were still good to watch.
All the shows back then had the right number of episodes so the plot doesn't drag like nobody's business(like a certain one that involves a very big-sized woman selling fish), and the only show then that had more episodes("福满人间", 40 episodes if I'm not wrong) was still a joy to watch.
The melodramatic ones had just enough heart-warming moments("家人有约", the one with 谢韶光 and 黄碧仁) that causes your eyes to water up; nowadays scriptwriters and actor just tries too hard and becomes far too whiny that it warms up our temper only.
The most notable is how dramas back then have endings that are relatively satisfying and doesn't generate the what-in-the-world-was-that reaction(cues entry of husky voice singing "每一段路~ 都是一种领悟~~")
I should just stick to Pokemon and watch Ash consistently pump his fist into the air and proudly declares his inability to undergo puberty after all these years.
I'm just bored.
我的背后
你是阳光 让我不怕冷漠
你是翅膀 让我背得动沉重
我的努力在你眼中你懂
你站在我背后 却在我的心中喊痛
I admit I'm a 5566 basher. But don't forget, I used to be a lover of 我难过(and still am) and even have their first 2 albums. I bash them only because I feel that they don't take their songs and records seriously; I will never forget how they lip-sync in their concert.
The point of suddenly saying this... is because I am going to recommend you to listen to one of their new song, 我的背后. It's good on cd at least.
I just don't feel comfortable praising them dammit.
Sibei jia lat
Honestly I don't mind guard duty on the 14th at all. In fact, after seeing quite a few people being hesitant about it(cuz they're attached), and since I thought I should store up some karma so that I'll be banished to the 17th level instead of the 18th when I die, I volunteered my name.
The previous post was basically something I wanted to continue on from the post which I said I was lucky to siam CNY's duty, so there's a bit of 黑色幽默 (me being unlucky and stuff).
Well actually, I volunteered so that I can self-hypnotize myself that I'm not going out on Valentine's NOT because I don't have a date but because I was trapped in camp.
Mm-hmm. I am so good at making myself feel better.
PS: Really honestly, it's because being in camp beats staying home to sulk.
I knew it, I knew it, I KNEW it
难过的时候来一点自嘲和自我调侃可以是一种智慧。
适当的使用， 会演变成一种幽默， 会带给你一种清新脱俗的自信。
Stayed in camp for no apparent reason yesterday. I'm just plain weird.
Anyway, I've got one great news to announce!
After 19 years of misery and torturous single hood, facing the onslaught of jealousy and anger during Feb the 14 every single year, I hereby declare that I will not be alone for the next Valentine's Day!
Muahahahhahaz.
I've got a date wor. All you sickening losers out there who are staying at home sulking during this coming feb 14th, BUHBYE HAHAHAHAHAZ SUCKERS.
Even the location for my date is damn exotic I tell you. If I told you where it is you would collapse with envy and start foaming at your mouth.
Serious!
It's at Sungei Gedong Camp and I'm dating my night guard duty.
Keep holding on
帘外芭蕉惹骤雨 门环惹铜绿
而我路过那江南小镇惹了你
And if it wasn't bad enough to be working with people you don't really like(and all the while, having to act like you don't dislike them), there's that workaholic of a section IC who forgets the time when he works.
The last meal I had was at... 9AM.
Hungry like hell. Thankfully, I didn't kenna CNY guard duty when they were drawing lots. Otherwise I'll be feeling so helpless.
But knowing my luck, I have a gut feeling that guard duty isn't going to let me off so easily.
Vids
If you're in a bad mood, funny videos are the key to lighten up!
I think the ego was hurt more than his body. The question was why did he do it 2 times.
Random
I SLEPT LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS! Shiokenathan.
Had stayover at Kai Quan's house for mahjong and PS2 gaming with Wei Liang and Kenneth.
We played 2cents for each tai only since we aren't gamblers but the lack of money bets would be pretty boring. A bit of money involved would be motivating.
Playing very seriously for that 2 cents.
I ended up winning $2. But in the end no one paid anything, na beh. After a short breakfast it was on to the PS2.
But everyone was shagged.
K.O
GG.
Kai Quan had Wii(wtf?!) but not a lot of games since the games were too expensive.
Guitar hero
Then we simply went home without touching the PS2 at all. I think play too much of it liao.
Tired sia, sleep too much. Go back to sleep liao. Buhbye~
$$$
It was an apology long overdue.
I thought of a lot of stuff during guard duty today. Mainly about my priorities that requires me to spend.
So there I was, slowly contemplating an issue which I was sure I would encounter long before this day, the importance of money. Before this I believed that as long as I enjoy myself and not do something I dislike, life is good. But I think I'm slowly and surely falling towards the side of money, because I gradually realise that without money a lot of dreams can't be fufilled.
To change to a new desktop(I've been saying this for almost 2 years liao sia), to get a laptop in Uni, to take driving lessons, all these require money and though I can simply put out my hand and ask for it, I'm not going to because this isn't part of what I want to be.(like this certain rich friend of mine we recently went to Japan without having to pay a single cent for the trip himself)
To project further into the future, to travel the world I'll need loads of money too. But as the eldest son there's the issue of taking care of my parents and the bigger issue of perhaps, my sister going Uni.
I don't even have room for my own apartment and wife!
First and foremost however, I need a paper to get a job that pays well enough. I have this feeling Communication Studies wouldn't give me that paper.
Ouch
I almost screamed at this lady who stepped on my toes at the bus interchange today.
I gave her my most agonized/shocked/painful look EVER and boy was she pai sei.
You shouldn't blame me for being so petty though.
She was wearing heels.
Stressed
Work's been really hectic and the jobs I'm doing now are really very much beyond my level of training and knowledge. Just today I had this Warrant officer explaining to me how the brake of the tank works and I swear it felt even less comprehensible than De Moivre's Theorem.
And it doesn't help when your colleagues talk better than they work.
Dealing with the fatigue and the emotions stirred by recent events is causing me to take an even longer time to fall asleep and waking up prematurely.
Once again, one of those times when I'm fighting all alone.
I can do this. I can.
Of suicidal blond bombshells
According to point number 4, 6 and 10 of this article, brought to my attention by Sinyee's blog, I am very much on my way to being a suicide bomber who doesn't sexually harass women and would have many sons if I ever get married.
Unless of course, I go on to find myself a prostitute.
This, however, doesn't change the fact that I do not sexually harass women(which is a good thing in the conventional sense of shame) because it really is, all in the name of good business. And if somehow, I ever visit one, the danger of contracting Aids comes; in which the end is the same as being a suicide bomber, albeit less glorious. Much less glorious.
Or perhaps I can simply just get married and have a lot of sons. Which eradicates the possibility of me becoming a suicide bomber because technically, in order to have sons, I must undergo a certain process which in essences removes my vision of a bleak reality of being a complete reproductive loser on earth; and so, I don't need to proceed on to Heaven(or wherever the 72 virgins are supposed to be).
Weighting all options, it really is the best to be a suicide bomber.
I mean, what's 72 meaningless foreigners' lives(whom you'll never be concern about or be concerned with) compared to the notion of 72 virgins waiting for you when you die?
Not to mention the possibility of a few blond bombshells among them...
PS: Nothing in this post reflects my true thoughts. Just something random I typed out randomly.
PSS: FINE. The last 2 statements do have a tinny weeny bit of resemblance to what I was thinking. BUT ONLY A TINNY-WEENY BIT AR.
Random update
不会有结果的.
但既然已身陷， 干脆溺死在这纠缠的爱吧。
Yesterday had dinner at Swenson's with JC class peeps as celebration for the January babies.
Pretty normal gathering; I only ate dessert though, since I've spent quite a lot this month already(and it's only the 13th nia).
And then I went off to meet Kai Quan and Wei Liang for gaming, which was a waste of money 'coz nothing seemed to go right for us. Both Wei Liang and I would agree that karma is strongly at work that night.
Btw, I know I'm a mean bastard for doing that.
But I can't help it; it just feels so good being frank with your emotions.
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On a random note, I've been hooked onto two oldies sang by Stefanie Sun.
Silent All These Years
If you ask me I think Stefanie did a better job with the song than Tori Amos did, not pronounciation of course, but more of the emotions in the voice. I love how Stefanie sang this part, "Well I love the the way we communicate, your eyes focus on my funny lip shape".
Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough
The 1st verse of the chorus, "But there's a danger in loving somebody too much" came out very strongly for me. Nice song.
And then there's the very gay song, 我不配, by Jay.
This song feels like Jay's inner shout-out about his past relationship/s that didn't work out because he is Jay Chou. And I'm jealous of him because he can write out his feelings in songs.
Btw, this song is gay because of this certain part in the bridge that is like, godlike difficult to sing. And the most important part of this mtv is the chio bu; she's the one who acted in 不能说的秘密 btw.
Radnom
From some random blog I saw,
「把正妹有三不， 那就是千萬不能告白、 絕對不能告白、 死都不能告白！
「我曾經很幼稚的以為， 與其在那裡曖昧到內傷， 忽冷又忽熱， 乾脆告白以求解脫， 成功了大家一拍即合， 失敗了大家一拍兩散， 無論如何求個明白， 這樣對雙方不是比較好嗎？ 嘿嘿... 很可惜這是你一廂情願的認為.」
「所以，大多數女生的想法就是，先把你晾著，反正告白了=你也跑不掉，等老娘先去晃一圈回來，再決定要不要吃你。」
Hmmm.
Oedipus
Someone please tell me how to pronounce the 'Oe' in 'Oedipus'?
Is it 'o', 'i', 'eh' or 'oh-yee'?
PS: I'll slap you if u say it's oh-yee.
Sick, and tired
What happens when you have a bad flu(NO, you don't know how it's like because you don't have a flu)*, physical training in the morning and after that, work on turning out bolts in positions whereby you can only use your forearm strength?
A very weak forearm.
I am so weakened now that I think if I had a guitar or a piano here I won't have enough strength in my arms to be able to play the notes.
If you're going to ask, "Then why you can type out this entry lei?", I can tell you right now, I'm typing with my tongue.
* It's a random thing; I got reminded of the Panadol flu advert.
Sick
I'm delirious. Seriously.
Second day of being officially plunged into work and I'm already stripping a god-knows-how-many tonnes tank engine. It'll be nice if it was a chio bu instead but no, it's really just a heavy, bulky, run-down piece of noisy crap.
Plus I'm sick.
So I thought I was hallucinating when I saw Mei Hong commenting on an indonesian roasted chicken sauce on Channel U's Campus Food Hunt.
So random.
So I am delirious afterall.
Sigh
The horrible feeling of helplessness is washing over me now, after realising tomorrow is MONDAY.
Alternate working days sounds like a pretty neat idea.
War at hand
CAN U FEEL IT PEOPLE?!
The disaster that is to strike...
The catastrophe that bears down on us...
The terror that is bound for us...
The end is near.
The dark time is upon us my brethren!
For the attack from weird CNY-songs-singing groups(mostly female) from M'sia with even weirder group names, unknown relatives whom you have to act 熟 for the sake of ang-baos(we all love being an opportunist don't we), bright red decorations(as demonstrated by Mark Lee during the Star Awards '07) and most potently,
GONG-XI-FA-CAI songs sangscreamed out by screechy-young-things-who-desperately-need-vocal-training, will impair our sense of hearing, sight, reasoning and sanity.
And we're already lucky there's the Olympics, so 5566 didn't give us yet another CNY song to add on to the devastation.
PS: When I say screechy, I meant nails-on-blackboard screechy.
剪贴归位的寂寞
Went out with Wei Liang, Yi Fan and Kai Quan for dinner and movie. We couldn't decide on a movie to watch since it's like, he watched one and the other he watched another show, and since we can't force anyone to watch any show 2 times, we ended up with pool and lan instead.
Personally, I think Dota and Counterstrike are life-skills. I haven't touched bother games for god-knows-how-long and I wasn't as rusty as I thought.
But there were a few awkward moments of silence between us during dinner and supper-army guys have absolutely nothing interesting to discuss I guess.
Now reading ＜剪贴归位的寂寞＞.
Yes, weird name, but that was what attracted me in the 1st place; I didn't even know what the book is about.
I can only say that in certain parts it is chim beyond my comprehension using chinese; I had to resort to mentally saying out the sentences in English before I could understand it. Hopefully the other chapters can be a bit lenient on chim-ness.
Reading and friends are good. It keeps your mind off stuff.
Scammer tio scammed
I know I'm slow but this is hilarious. Check out this post to know what's going on.
Snow Queen
I'm healing, I'm healing.
It really is true that under pressure one may perform exceptionally well.
On Wednesday 3 guys in my unit and I decided to watch Korean drama on DVD since there's nothing to do. And so we started at around 8 in the evening to watch Snow Queen.
Hour by hour the number of people watching dwindled and by the time it came to 12, I was the sole survivor. Because the owner of the DVD would be leaving in the morning, I was under pressure to finish the show before he leaves.
That seemed impossible; with about 11 episodes left and around 7 hours left, it looked like I would have to rely on Youtube to finish the show.
BUT LIM PEH FINISHED IT LAH. Damn pro. All thanks to the great Fast-Forward button and no-breaks-in-between chionging. Btw, the show is very, erm, Korean. The female was very un-chio initially but her cuteness kinda grew on me so I didn't mind watching the show.
And it was all thanks to the DVD that I was spared the painful nights which was bound to be sleepless ones for me.
And it was all thanks to this distraction that I was in a calm frame of mind to get out of the emotional wreck that I was.
2008
Ooo, just woke up. Spent the last day of 2007 'counting down' with S28 peeps at Marina Bay. Then we spent the whole night outside playing games and sorts.
I think this is the time for New Year resolutions and thank-you speeches right? hmmm. I've done my NYR 2 months ago so that's done. As for the thank-you speeches...
Well. A simple thanks I guess. You know who you are. Especially the 2/4 gang.
And then it's back to reality. *sigh* I hate NS.
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I'll be in camp till Fri! It will be a very testy 3 days because on Wed and Thur, my unit is having it's anniversary, which is an overnight thingy at Headquarters(Ayer Rajah Camp); and because there is an exercise going on, I need to be on standby in camp.
So for the whole of Wed and Thur, I will be all alone in camp with absolutely nothing to do, while everyone else gets their off for Wed daytime, have fun on Wed night. Then they go for Off on Thur, while I continue to stay in camp and pray that the tanks don't screw up.
Plus I'm having a rather big wave of emotions which I'm suppressing because if I don't I'll... become who I was 2 years ago.
So I hope I'll get through this few days in the best possible manner.
