Funny.
Something funny to watch. But i think you need to know what they were implying to feel its funny.
Part 1
Part 2
Money money money~
Its past midnight, SO ITS 2 DAYS TO MY FREAKING GP paper.
Oh wells. Putting that aside for a while. I'm looking forward to HK trip!!
But.. The blarrrdy heir-tickets costs S$393! That's like 27,564,839 miles from what I initially thought it'll cost! And do you know why it's expensive? Because of heirport tax lah! The tickets themselves cost 200 plus, taxes are over a hundred, that's at least 40% tax leh na bei.
Wah kao take so much tax all spent on cleaning up the heirport and putting nice-nice-shiny-shiny equipment for what? For the blardy foreigners la. We locals have to tahan cockroaches and lizards and they come here jalan jalan abit can enjoy so much. Kao.
Don't take the above too seriously ok? Anyway, I don't like the idea of spending too much of my parents' money but this trip would definitely require my reliance on them because the numbers printed on my bank isn't even enough for the heir tickets la. Which, by the way, gave me a chance to look through my bankbook.
I realise there's only 2 times that I've withdrew money from the account after saving up all the bursaries I earned in primary school, and the two times were enough to drain the account. The second withdrawal was quite reent: buying a dvd player for the house cuz no one else in the house thought a dvd player was necessary. And now everyone's fighting to get to use it. Depriving my TV time and no showing of appreciation somemore.
To my horror, I realise the first withdrawal was for the purchasing of this very computer I am using now.
OK. This is it. I will put my remaining money left in the account to good use! I officially declare a warrant for the kaiabu haohihye salesman who sold me this computer. Reward Rp$300!!!
PS: I want the bastard alive. Because I want to strap him onto my chair and put him in front of my computer and make him watch laggy videos with laggy graphics and play Solitaire for 4 years. When I'm feeling bored I'll subject him to ultimate torture by making him watch laggy gay porn(like slow-mo, ahahahahahz) while I look at his twisted agonising face(while avoiding the porn myself lest i puke). Muahahahahz, let him have a taste of his medicine.
Baka
雨是无声的 风是沉默的 路是哺育的 你是安静的
手是粗糙的 脚是疲惫的 头发是零乱的
我, 还是安静的.
Why do i have the feeling that the more i study, the more retarded i feel?
Random Ramblings.
My mum was asking me if Mediacorp will be telecasting the upcoming 全球华语歌曲排行榜. The answer is no, obviously, since Mediacorp hates to part with their money they got from the call-ins for the Star Awards, Project Superstar, Superhost, Superband.... Just look at the so called special programmes they show on public holidays: repeated telecasts.
I think hor, exams are meant to make you grow old faster. It's a devious plot devised by the gahmen to earn more money. See, when you face exams, you get stressed out, and most humans mature under stress, hence the countless exams we face matures us to the extent that we get old. So when we get old, we worry less of the excesses like clothes, toys, cartoons, idols...
OH. Speaking of idols, I am veli veli angry lehz. You know why or not. Becuz ar, when I was young, naive, dumber, and more loyal to my idols, they happily held their Meet-the-Fans session all the way at so-damn-far Cineleisure. And now that I'm too old and pai-seh to be going to any of such events, they decide to hold it at a closer venue, IMM. Kaiabu Haohihye.
Back to topic, and as we grow old, we worry less of clothes, toys, idols and we start to worry about the important stuff, like money, future, jobs. And because we start to want to earn, we need a job. So we start work early. And then, as we work, the blardy gahmen gets to tax us. (TAXES! The ultimate bloodsucker!) Then the more we work, the more we earn, the more they tax! The more they tax, the more we angry, the more we work somemore! With all these working, our health deteoriate, and we die early, THEN GAHMEN NO NEED WORRY ABOUT THE AGED POPULATION. Save money liao lah.
That doesn't makes sense doesn't it? O well, life doesn't always makes sense either, doesn't it?
TWINS
Just went to catch 'The Prestige'!
Was expecting to watch Death Note actually, but someone in the gang watched it already so we ended up watching The Prestige instead.
Well, I went in knowing absolutely nothing about the show, and came out knowing its pretty good. Smart plot, though I think it borders a little on being ridiculous, but overall, worth the ticket price. It's the type of show that allows someone to TOTALLY spoil the show by simply telling you one thing.
So, I shalln't say anything.
So, if you're feeling pretty out-of-your-mind, or suicidal, or have given up on life, or lazy, or simply, heck care
Go catch the show.
OH. I'm taking the A levels next week. Ahaha. ha.. ha.. hah...
Woot.
Woo-hoo. Ok, I promise no heavy stuff today kays? Lets talk about lighter stuff amidst this heavy atmosphere.
Erm.. Let's talk about... Ah-ha, I'M BOOKING IN ON THE 26th NEXT JAN!! Wait. Not very light oso hor. Er, well, looking on the bright side; at least I'm not booking in during Dec unlike some noobs*point finger at Ke**eth and laughs*. Well, I'm not really afraid of NS, since there's free food, lodging and you get paid for thatsince I get to serve the country, I'm more afraid of the swimming aspects. Because I think I have a bit of hydrophobia, cuz when i was very young, I had the wonderful experience of drowning. I can even remember how many mouthfuls of water I drank lah. Very memorable indeed.
Wtf. Supposed to be light stuff, why suddenly become so melancholic one.
NEVERMIND. Change topic. Let's talk about... er.. light stuff light stuff... got what lighter stuff to talk about.. c'mon c'mon... erm.
BAAH. Forget it. Let's all sink back into the depressing atmosphere.
Siao liao
*groans*
Insomnia back. And nose getting more sensitive.
Very destructive. Must get these problems fixed. On top of that, GP is beginning to worry me.
Must kill.
Mugging makes me brutal.
I was out for lunch at JP and someone stepped on my slippers.
I turned around, grabbed the bastard by the collars and dragged him all the way up to the M-Mati platform and took the train to Chinese Garden, all the while hammering on the leg that stepped on mine, and threw him onto the train tracks when another train was approaching.
Just joking. No disrespect meant. But if you ask me, i'll only choose to kill myself out of poverty when I have no wife to take care of. So irresponsible.
I'm damn sick of mugging.
Right now, if the day's a no-mood-to-do-papers day, I'm in deep trouble cuz I can't read notes. Reading notes is like reading Enid Blyton's storybook for the 20,000th times.
Why can't they just test us on Enid Blyton's stories instead har? So mush simpler right.
Just a little self-doubting
Every second that ticks past and every 60 of that ticks just makes me edge closer to the brink of despair.
It is at this point in time when you realise the pressure of an extra subject, the pressure of not enough time. What sets the A levels apart from the O's is that while you can fly through O levels by just studying, you can barely crawl past the gates of the A levels if you don't practice.
Every morning, waking up to the realisation that I'm one day closer to the damn thing just pushes my heart right up to my throat and chokes me. How many times have I woken up feeling desperate? That's very painful, because by right, everyone should wake up, at least for like 5 minutes after waking up, feeling as joyful as a 3-year-old who's just received his Christmas present. But as a true-blue(very blue indeed) S'porean student, I'm always waking up on the left side and feeling as grouchy as a cancerous patient.
I'm always spending the first hour of the morning trying to lift my spirits, telling myself that its damn idiotic to give up after spending all those years in this wretched system. Slowly, the persuasion has evolved into arguing with myself, and I'm sure in time, I'll have to be whipping myself to get myself standing up against this onslaught.
I guess that's my life. Most of the time by my own in many things(then again, aren't we always left alone when the real deal comes?), and not because I'm socially rejected but because I reject social interference. I have little faith in my fellow humans, to tell the truth; the only people I spare a bit more trust are my family and that few brothers. Even so, still a pathetic amount of trust compared to what I can offer. Which shows my lack of faith in many other things, like in a higher power. If I had believed in that higher power, I'll push every single responsibility in my life to Him/Her, attributing every success/failure, because its always been part of my personality to be pushing responsibilities away. Call it the urge for freedom, call it a form of escapism from reality; I push what i can push away, otherwise, I'll do whatever within my means to fulfill that job.
I believe that coincidences happen and nothing in this world is planned. Death is just a matter of accident; same goes for birth. No one plans my life, good or bad, I will design it myself. Therefore, as little faith I may have in everything and in myself, i will not break down, i will not fall; I'm too practical to be giving up at this final quarter of the match.
Let's just hope I score that last few free throws when they come and not get myself fouled out.
After which, it will be about finding the strength to give out all that trust which wasn't meant to be kept to myself.
退后
Bored? Stressed? Watch MTVs will make you happy lah.
夜的第七章. The song that requires you to possess 4 lungs to sing it. Serious.
This is the long version.
The mtv that Jay is most natural in! I like it cuz the ending is what I wanna see. Muahahahz.
Flagged inappropriate cuz fighting too fake. Ahahahaz.
How come jj de drinks stall vendor not as chio one.
Behind the scenes!
Something out-of point. Its boring, I think. I only was interested in the beginning. heehee.
Blah
Everyday's a struggle out of the darkness.
Of losers
I think hor. If you are big, fat and quite ugly and have a bad character, you ought to be ostracised for having a bad character. Not because you are big fat and ugly.
Sushi later! Woot. I think with all that food and zero exercise, I'm going to look like this:
Holy cow.
I just needed something to vent my frustration.
I think... all those people in DPRK(Don't Play 'Round Koreans) are idiots.
Serious. And I'm saying everyone there, whether its the ones oppressed or the ones oppressing. The ones oppressed are oppressed idiots, the ones oppressing are the oppressing idiots; the only difference between them is that the latter is smarter so they get to be the ones oppressing.
But that's only comparing their level of intelligence within the country. Look at the big picture and every one of them are equally idiotic.
I mean, right now everyone in the world are comparing and whining about not enough money and oil prices, except those oppressing idiots. Why the hell get nuclear weapons and making yourself eat air everyday(or rather, make the oppressed idiots eat air)? Its like a bunch of kids in school going "Oh, the new Nokia damn cool la blahblah", then some guy named Jong-Il comes along and say "Yeah, I got a new Sega Saturn!".
Absolutely irrelevant and old-fashioned.
So what if in the end, you get the most weapons? You burn everything and exactly what are you going to gain?
Sometimes I just feel like going up to these so-called Leaders and give them each a slap.
NO LA, Just joking only la,ahah ha.. hah...
Terminal Illness.
I think... i am terminally ill.
I'm not even sure on how do i describe the symptoms, but here it goes anyway. If there's anyone who understands what I am going to say next and knows why it happens, PLZ SAVE ME.
When the 'phenomenon' begins, I start having blurred visions. Its like having patches of bright spots that starts obscuring my view and I can't see properly; like yesterday, Kok Mun was standing in front of me, and there was a point of time where I can only see half of his face clearly.
Its very very uncomfortable, and.. er, i don't know how to describe it la na bei. The only way to not feel uncomfortable is to simply remove my specs(leaving me 80% blind). But as the spots start to subside, the ultimate headache comes. I swear I almost fainted on the M-Mati when going home yesterday la.
I made it home feeling totally drained, lied on the bed for like an eternity with that comstant throbbing headache before I finally slept.
Which leaves me here, perplexed at why had that happened.
Because, in the past, it only happens when.. i didn't take breakfast then happy happy go play bball. So i presumed it was the lack of sugar in my body that led to that, but yesterday, I hardly sweat and had a filling breakfast; all i did was going to SIR Building to waste some of my youth away lehz.
I am hence, very worried. If the bloody thing happens during my exam, I will be screwed. Totally.
Anyone has an idea of what that is?
Er..
Tomorrow marks the day the school officially declared as the last day of school for us. Though I declared mine about 2 days ago.
No special feelings, either the studying's making me coldblooded or I really don't care. Gotta head off directly after chem mock to get the passport done with the other 3 sissies.
Nothing to say lah.
Buai.
BB.
Zai jian.
Sayonara.
Goodbye
*waves*
rawr
Chiong la.
Waste
就像秋天落叶的树， 只要放下包袱， 下一季依然会有绿叶长出。
Pretty much wasted day. Pon GP in the morning only to be called back. Still a waste of time if you ask me.
My ego takes a beating everyday as i do papers. Not because I don't know how to do them, but because I could do them. Somehow, I freak out during examinations and suddenly dont' know how to do questions that I can handle usually.
Too stressed? I guess so. I'm keeping myself alive by telling myself morale-boosting stuff everyday, and its nice cause I come out with new things everyday so my Chinese isn't de-proving as much as my GP is. Occasionally, on nice days, I come out with creative ones, like the one above.
This is a pretty pointless entry. Oh wells. 18/12/06! Hong Kong awaits my arrival muahahahahahz.
乔乔
Took this from some nub's blog. Laughed my pants off man.
Nothing much today. Spend some money buying new shoes since the old one's tearing and World of Sports is having sale. Hafta scrimp a bit for this month le T_T.
O well, might as well tell you about this show I've been watching, called '爱情魔法师'. I always were unable to stand 偶像剧s but when I happened to sit down and watched a part of it when my sister was watching it, I actually liked it! If you know me well enough, you would've guessed that it must be because the female lead chio(HAH, for a minute i actually forgot who was the male lead)!
Wrong. To some extent la.
Initially, I thought she quite normal looking. And thought she act-cute type one.
But in the show she is so... er, natural cute. And its not because she do all those cutesy stuff, but on the contrary, pretty dumb things that made her cute. Like the female lead in Princess Hours(starts tomorrow! yeah) lah, if you can't get my point. So, I am now officially in the 乔乔 fanclub! Woot.
Quite difficult to find a nice pic of her cuz she only looks slightly better from some angles.
Did some background checking and was pretty shocked. She's only 27 days older than me la! And after watching some variety shows with her around, realise that she resembles Hebe in many ways, the coolness, the direct-ness, occasional quirkiness and such.
Hmmm. I think I have a weakness for such girls.
But...
Why all so damn far from me har?
Die!
I think I'm possibly in trouble.
See, I was outside this morning when I received a call from a man. Initially, I thought it was some asswhipe-advertising company trying to get me to buy their products, until he identified himself as someone from the General Office of JJ. Immediately, i changed my tone and even offered him coffee! But that's out of the point, anyways, he started asking me about my absence from school on Thursday, saying that school misses me and really needs me and stuff, THEN MY PHONE SWITCHED ITSELF OFF.
It does that occasionally, don't ask me why my phone did that; probably the Bloodline Limit of the 6510 phones, but the thing is, I HUNG UP ON SOMEONE FROM THE GENERAL OFFICE. Or so he thought i did.
I am so dead.
He's probably feeling very screwed up, and decides to put a post-it on the class registry, and the post-it writes:
"Sonnawabiatch hung up on me. Drown Tan Wei Yuan(Sxxxx449F) in the fountain on Monday."
Goodbye world. Don't miss me when I'm gone. Burn me some money at the fountain instead.
终蚯杰
Examinations really make your life sad man.
Last year, during this wonderous Mid Autumn festival, right at this time, I was in school, happily celebrating it with friends. I even had the chance to sing 七里香 with the class la.
Now, I can't do the same thing cuz neighbours are going to kill me if i sing 七里香 with this haze around.
I can only quietly sing 月亮代表我的心 at the moon and hope that Chang E' turns into Werewolf and come down to kill/eat/mutilate/dismember/decapitate/anything-that-kills-me. Meanwhile. I'll guess I'll just light the candles and dance in the moonlight.
Am i the only one who knows this song at all? Its a famous song lehz...Dancing in the moonlight
Everybody's feeling warm and bright
Its such a fine and natural sight
Everybody's dancing in the moonlight
Explanation for the Haze.
Indonesian Farmer 1: "Katon, Goukakyuu No Jutsu!"
And he burns down a small piece of the forest.
Indonesian Farmer 2: "Housenka no Jutsu!"
And he burns down multiple small parts of another forest.
Indonesian Farmer 3: "Katon, Karyuu Endan!"
And he burns down a big part of another forest.
Now, take all those farmers in Indonesia, and have them repeat the same thing.
How to not have such a big haze i ask you?!
PS: Sry, inside joke.
Pon
Due to the injury from Kenny's fiery attack in a bid to get his loved one, I was unable to go to school today.
So its not my fault that i didn't go to school today, hor.
Good-Hearted
Yesterday I happen to be watching this documentary on tv about the story of this female volunteer. She is a volunteer working in the Peace Ward in the hospital; Peace Ward is where the dying patients stay and they are basically going to pass on soon. Her job is not only to keep these poor dying people company, but also to console them(and their family) and to prepare them for the imminent end.
She is so devoted to her work that she is on call 24-7, even if its a call at 3 a.m in the night, she'll still rush down to the hospital by herself. Imagine a woman, staying in a ward together with a dying person, yet she was never afraid or superstitious. Each time a patient passes on, she'll take care of the funeral and whatsoever necessary.
When i was watching I just felt so small and overwhelmed. Being able to do so much and give so much love to total strangers, she doesn't belong to the type of people who do volunteer work simply to make themselves feel better, but she really gets involve spiritually. I just thought, its so easy to simply just do all the work, but can everyone else devote so much love and care in their work? Its not easy, and for me whose code of conduct was never 'be a nice guy', its near impossible.
I know in order to attain that level of thinking, I need to be compassionate and not bear hatred(at least bear as little hatred as possible la). Right now, I bear hatred for too many things; foreign workers, GP teachers, A levels, relatives-with-shady-past, biased grandmother... If I am able to hate even my own people, people I know, then going on to do volunteer work just puts me in the category of doing it just to make myself feel good. I am sure that I will feel every bit like a hypocrite if i volunteered.
But this will not set me back or give myself an excuse to be self-centred. I guess its time i stop being nice to myself and start being nice to others(the opposite of my good friend's new aim lol).
Somehow, I must suppress the hate...
Somehow, I will.
Late.
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间 我突然发现 谁能体谅我的雨天
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There are bigger things happening around me than myself.
Not the most useful. But at least, a stark reminder of life's unpredictability. And that I am lucky in some ways at least.
