Love/Hate
To love is to: ====================================================================== To hate is to: ====================================================================== Alrite. A random post, did the love part initially, then realise all the sentences i give can convert to hate by changing or adding a few word/s. Then asked a few persons for theirs, and realise only one cannot convert to hate with the least changes. See if u can spot it!
Should i stay
"Its hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
Its sad to be true
And be fooled, by you"
Anyone got Dreamz FM's "Should I stay" ??
Nice song..
Untitled
坚强得太久, 好疲惫 死了, 心痛也就没感觉...
Dear Crystal,...
Hahaz. Been returning home these days with quite a black face.
So Dad worried a little.
"You getting sad about her?" Dad asked me.
I answered.
"No la. Its stupid enough i got depressed and thought i caused her death that time. Its stupid-er that I'm getting depressed for her who died 2 years ago."
Speaking of her, think her death anniversary around this month? Or previous month? Hahaz... Quite failure hor me, date oso dunno.
But i'll never know de.
Dun worry. I realli not depressed or sad.
I've moved on.
Good luck to all
Promos starting in a few hours time.
Damn exciting la.
Now slacking away.. Got reason de.
Before language papers i'll avoid doing revision for other subjects, cuz they make my mind very deadish.
Langauge papers need concentration and analytical mind.
So i'll just sit under waterfall to meditate bah..
Guitar
Just returned from a veru un-productive group study. They went off for DOTA; i, refusing instant gratification and later regret, came home lor.
The reason for the un-productiveness is bascially weiliang. Or rather, weiliang's guitar. Yi fan played it real well, considering he only started learning this year.
The guitar reminded me of the stayover at Lyoe's house a few months back, I learnt to play the starting part of Jay Chou's "Qing Tian". Not a great feat considering the fact that the starting part no need any progression wad thing. What's worse is that I've forgotten everything clean now liaoz.
Hahaz. Primary school blow recorder oreadi got problem, guitar worse la. Talking about primary school. I remembered in the past I've always thought that guys who play the guitar are damn cool la. To me, saying you know the guitar is like saying you know Michael Jordan like that, damn cool. Now, I know dozens of people who can play the guitar; of which, all learnt it by themselves la. According to them, learning it by yourself, you can learn more.
So guitar players are nothing. Instead, I think guys who play the piano are... wah, stunning. Look at Jay Chou, playing the piano while singing ai qing xuan ya and ge qian. Even a male like me would momentarily fall in love with him la.*
Ok, a little off the topic. Back to the group study, yi fan's playing kind of make me feel like learning the guitar again. Last time i tried, but lost the passion then didn't bother.
Perhaps, after the Promos i would consider learning it. Afterall, to learn it i need a guitar(that means $$) and perhaps some help in teaching me th basic chords and "progression" thingy.
Wah. "After Promos" like using very frequently lehz.
*Momentarily. I am not gay.
Sabo
Wah lao.
Friendster sabo me la.
Now i'll never know what was sent.
!#@$^%!$@^!$#^@$#^!@&
Freeeee~
Just like everything else in Singapore, bloggers are gradually being noticed and pressurized. In other words, losing freedom.
I'm starting to think that Singapore is like China.
Just that our government better at covering up.
Don't say liaoz.
I don't want to take Promos in a cell.
Bored
Yup.
Nth better to do so set up Friendster account.
I need help in getting the fotos up and spice up the profile page.
Username and pw i put in bulletin board liaoz. Or u ask it from me personally.
[conc]
Concentrate weiyuan!
2 hours each day is not going to get you through the promos!
Why did the chicken cross the road.
Strange things happen to me all the time. As if that dream i had 2 days ago wasn't strange enuff..
I was returning from school after playing basketball. Was supposed to do FM mock exam but for some reason Mr Sia let us take home. Nevermind, that's not the point.
I was waiting for the red man to turn green at a road junction when i realise that a chicken was standing next to me, tapping its chicken feet impatiently, also wanting to cross the road.
A rare sight indeed. So i decided to converse a little with the chicken.
Me: Hey yo chicken, interesting to see you here.. How do u do?
Chicky: The name's Chicky, puny human. What business you have with me.. I'm in a hurry.
Me: In a hurry hur.. So, why are you crossing the road?
Chicky: Long story, i do not see the need to share it with you....
Me: Oh, dens its okay, i don't...
Chicky: But since you insist i shall then tell you.
Me: Okayyyyyyyy...
Chicky: Long time ago, i collaborated with my friend, Colonel to set up this fast-food restaurant. He let me take charge of this club inside the restaurant, but recently he's thinking of shutting it down cuz its losing money.. Not my fault lar.. i so attractive... All government's fault, got bird flu never control sabo my business...
Me: What's that got to do with you crossing..
Chicky: Haven't your mum taught you to not interupt people while they're speaking?..
Me:*giggles* But you're not people...
Chicky: Shuddap*rolls eyes*. Anyway, Colonel's thinking of killing me to make me Crispy, though i would prefer Original, but either way I don't want to die, so I'm crossing the road to take bus lor to run lar.
Me: Haiz, don't be a chicken leh. Go fight it out with him, maybe you'll win.... Eh.. Don't be chicken.. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHZ~
Chicky:*Disgusted look* (walks away)
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Pretty obvious how bored i am.
零
从来不相信我的世界可以有多完美
痛苦, 寂寞 还有一些疲惫
不允许他人随意进入我的零度空间
宁愿孤独
Untitled
I've been walking around in circles while love lurks around corners.
Romantic~
Long term relationship.
One in Malaysia, one in Perth.
Girl on bad terms with guy's mother.
How worse can it get?
Kenny Sia knows best. His entry to his girlfriend Nicole is damn romantic la.
Die
So many natural disasters.
I remembered the time when i saw the disaster during Sept 11, i thought it would be the worst thing that can happen to us. Then, Sars came, followed by bird flu, now we have dengue. What came along like toys that come along with Happy meal are the terrorist attacks.
Wah. We have external attacks(natural disaster) and internal strife(terrorist). Think the Earth as a country, then recall what we've learnt in History - countries that have external invasion and internal strife, what happened to them harx?
Darkest Thoughts
"Weiyuan, do you really know why is your life so pathetic? Simply because you are weak, and you reveal all these weaknesses! Look at your blog, its full of your weaknesses! Your enemies could most probably writing all your weaknesses into a book and they're going to have no problem in knocking u down should they ever to decide to do that. You get my point? And ya, how u expect girls to like you when you appear as such a weakling? Girls want to be protected, not the other way round la."
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An except of a conversation that eventually made me close down my blog.
Yup. The main reason i close my blog is because I don't want to appear a weakling to the world.
I am jealous of those perfect people out there. Jealous of those boys who have girls swarming around them. Jealous of those with steads. Jealous of those good-looking people. Jealous of those nice people with tons of girls falling for them.
I am sick of being none of the above. Sick of being the jealous.
I wan to be the envied one instead.
I wan to be the perfect one.
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Surprised that weiyuan has thoughts like that?
Ya, i have my deepest and darkest thoughts as well.
Thoughts i wanted so much to fufill.
But, i know fully how impossible that is. I can never become good-looking; i can never deny my mean and direct nature. I can never become perfect, because no one else can.
That's the reason why i re-opened my bloog:-)
Loser
Sometimes, when you try too hard, everything just falls apart.
I tried to be funny and wanted to alleviate the tiredness. Ended up she had to try to entertain me instead. Made her even more tired. Can see from her replies..
I feel like..... Haish.
It is such things that can really get me down.
Why can't i even settle such an easy task of trying to cheer a friend up?
Just had my mocking mock test.
Pretty darn failure i say.
Yawn~
Never fails to make me feel a little sad when i re-tell that story la. But momentarily sad only la.
Anyway.
Kok mun is right. And i can't believe i forgot this Golden Truth of Humanity.
I can never stop people from talking.
I shall just ignore them.
Lala
Some bloogers say that there are somethings which they can't really put up on blogs cuz its too personal and would perhaps ruin people's original image of the blogger.
I have mine as well, of course, but perhaps fewer than others', cuz i have no qualms about posting entries which may make people think badly of me. I don't really care.
Therefore, i shall address one issue here.
Recently, my class has been teasing me and this girl(unlucky girl).
I shall ask for a favour from you guys, to stop this teasing? Ya, for a simple reason. You all tease liddat hor, i can't even tok to her as a normal friend la. Liddat situation very pai seh lor, even peng you dou nan zuo lehz.
So direct sia. I am shocked at my direct-ness.
But if I'm not direct, I wouldn't be called weiyuan rite?
Hahz
Stayed back in school to study de.
Ended up crapping with kok sin and hong yi.
Think i've found really good friends who can get serious or funny at the right times.
So happy
I am not going to whine about how poor i did for my De Moivre's and functions test- I'm as sick as writing it as you are reading it.
I shall be optimistic and find happier things that happened to look at.
Erm. Left alone in class doing work while the others played. Nope.
Erm. Walked home alone on another route but the bloody rain turned heavier and i almost got caught in it. Nope.
Erm. Went home to realise mum never cook(again), dad overtime, and i am broke. Means my sis(and i, but not important) haf to starve. Nope.
Sis starved, and insolent her screamed at me. Yes, screamed. Not happy again.
Went for haircut after getting money, hairdresser made me doubt either her hearing or my chinese. Depressing.
Life is beautiful.
Bored
Hmmmm.
Its 2am on a cool, tuesday night.
Not insomnia, i slept when i came back from school this afternoon.
Functions test, only chance to score, hopefully it wouldn't be too tough.
ZeRo
Zero.
Proud hunter of the Republic, nemesis to the Mavericks.
Haunted by his dark past, he never quite remember it. When he finally did, he realised that he was part of the evil mavericks in the past but was killed by Hunter in during a coup. Zero was immediately caught between his true dark nature and his loyalty to the Hunters and the one he love so much..
Everything fell apart when she became a Maverick and Zero was forced to kill her... Thus, Zero despaired and went into the dark side, pining himself against his best friend, fighting to destroy the Earth...
But, he eventually repented, but the Earth was near its doom.. Without a word, Zero sacrificed himself and saved the Earth from destruction...
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Guess I've never really explained myself having the nick of Zero while online. Zero is my favourite character in these series of game called Megaman, which i played while i was younger.
Now, i'm pretty much in awe at this character for his bravery to face up to his dark side and eventually, the sacrifice.
Zero.Dreamz.
A hero without a dream.
Night Walk
[Warning: Disgustingly long entry]
Many a times in life, certain things you do that are deem harmful actually reaps benefits in another form.
Just like me today. As usual, I was about to turn in at about 2am after a long chat with my good friends when pangs of hunger struck me. Insomnia again i predicted.
Kind of loitered in the house for a while looking for something to eat and realise the house is practically clean of any instant food. And so, i reluctantly went out to the nearest 7-11 store at JP for some food. Surprise surprise.
The night was...
dark blue. Yup, a very dark blue, thanks to the moon and the almost cloudless sky, the entire sky is being lid up, even the streets look brighter le. The scarce clouds are scattered in strip-like pattern, very faint, very far apart from each other, as if opening up the sky for whoever wishes to glance upon it.
I looked up, and i should say for the past 2 years of walking in the streets at the wee hours of the night I have never seen a more beautiful night sky. Or is it because i never looked at it in such a good mood before?
I walked on to 7-11 without much thought, got what i wanted, and then begun my way back.
The Northern star Polaris stood over me, still shining as brightly even with the moon at its full, the Polaris showed its resilence. It is at this time when i saw something... beautiful. I've read about it before, and most i read about had simply undermined it because "it is just another star".
But, this is a Star that twinkles.
Twinkle, and the Star became red.
Twinkle and it becomes yellow in an instant.
Another twinkle and it seemed almost orange.
The process carried on, but it didn't bore me at all. Because i am looking at history in its different shades, a fabric from time that travelled thousands of light-years to reach here, a glimpse into forgotten history of men.
I stood there watching it for another five minutes or so, munching on my late supper, my eyes and my stomach feeding itself to this magnificent sight/food.
Then, i decided that today would be a wonderful chance to walk again, but this time, i'll walk it smilingly with steps of happiness; no longer will i repeat history and walk these roads filled with sorrow and weep along it.
And so, i walk on and on... Alog the way i see more of those very special twinkling stars. A sight i've longed to see for so long popped out so many times today, perhaps this is fate huh?
And so i walk and walk, time pass me by swiftly and soon it was near day. The lonely planet of Mercury hanged lazily over the horizon; and soon the finale to the night begin with the first rays of light from the Sun, finally concluding my journey...
One night of sleep in exchange for a look into a colourful history and perhaps to revisit my very own painful past with a light heart. Not bad huh..
World Toilet Organisation?
I was sniffing around Kenny_Sia's blog when i came across this.
No shit(Pun intended), WTO is real, based in Singapore and is going to set up its college.
Hilarious.
Happy birthday to...
HOW WEI MIN.
Proud member of the very smelly Rubbish 6, husband to the very cherry curry, and the most powerful fighter in all Ninjiatsu history.
Wish u bai tou xie lau wif ur very cherry curry and takkaire!
Tho u wouldn't be reading this~
Funny~
If you are looking for a funny, un-serious blog that talks about current affairs in a totally wacky way to de-stress yourself, i recommend Cheeky. This guy made me laugh my guts out la. So damn funny. Note: Cheeky uses a lot of vulgarities in his blog, but nevertheless, funny.
等待
做你的的普通朋友, 没有想像中的痛苦...
Hmmmm.
Not much about mid-autumn celebrations.
The bestworst part was when i tio sabo to go up to sing la. I really didn't want to destroy the PA system de~
Luckily, I have my great and enthu classmates of 05s28 to sing along wif me~ So sweet.
I think...
This is the most united class I've ever been in my my ten years of studying... No kidding.
05S28 rox la.
Empathy
Today we had a presentation from this guy from the Hwa Chong Institution regarding the 26 Dec Tsunami. We were showed clips and pictures from the affected areas. Pretty disturbing.
I am not going all compassionate and wei da sayinghow affected i was and i felt like crying blah blah.
Because that wasn't what i felt.
I just felt.. nothing.
You can't blame me right? I am, afterall, just a ill-bred, spoon-fed, sheltered, overprotected brat living under the wings of the S'pore government.
The worst calamity that happend to me is probably having no pocket money. The most painful experience i have is being punched in the stomach. The scariest experience i've had is probably just the close accident i had yesterday. Of which, none compared to what those tsunami victims are going through.
I can't empathise with all those people, because I am not in their shoes, neither have i gone through something that is even similar for me to feel like whatever they are feeling now..
This is ho unfeeling i am and i don't deny it.
This is me, the me i want so much to change..
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Anyway, just walked home from school. Wah, the 187 route, so damn long, and the sun is scorching sia. Later going to have mooncake festival celebration in school. Hope things go well.
We love cars, don't we?
I think i can be listed into "Top Ten Persons with the highest numbers of near accidents" record liaoz la.
Today walked home fron school as usual. All was normal, until I came to the multi-storey carpark near my house. You know if u walk in these carparks, you're mostly to stick close to the sides when the cars are parked there, which is what i did.
I had my headphone on, so naturally i wouldn't hear the car starting its engine. Naturally i would walk on like nobody's business. Naturally, the driver would drive out. Naturally, i, who is totally oblivious to it, would naturally have the shock of my life as the car bumped me.
Ok. Too many naturally-s.
Anyway, the car kind of bumped me on my legs a little only cuz thank God/Jesus/Allah/Guanyinma the driver was fast enough to step on the brakes. I had both my hands on the hood of the car at that time and as i actually took a moment to register what the hell just happened.
That's like the second time i got into an accident this week. Think this time maybe i wouldn't die even if the car went all the way, just serious injuries. But each encounter gets closer and closer... I think the next time this happens would be tomorrow and i'll either be half-dead or become vegetable liaoz la.
Dun mourn for me ok.
C'est La Vie
Whatever the outcome, i'll accept it with a smile and say "That's life.".
Hahaz.
P-R-O-M-O-S
Lack of sleep+lack for appetite+too much instant food+too much stress
=WEIYUAN YOU ARE KILLING YOURSELF.
I never thought i would be pushed into such a state..
Untitled
Don't know what made me did it, but i actually told all my feelings about the recent happenings in the house to my mum.
She had no comments, hope she understands...
Moonlighting
I am sure quite a few have experienced such people before. I did, only recently.
My friend and i were just discussing about such people today, and think both of us did came up with a few common names. No, i am not going name anyone here, don't want to spoil my friendships..
Anyway, talking about these hypocritical people really make my blood boil. Well, usually in school, we would occasionally ask each other whether if they've done their revision or whether they did their homework, these people would say they didn't, and then complained about them going to die in the examinations bla blah.. When in actual fact, they did ALL revision le and scored pretty darn well in their exams.
Ok la, maybe their definition of "die" is different from us, but how about the revision and homework part? Don't tell me they genius la. I really don't see the need to lie about such things lor, why not just be frank and say "Ya, did my revision le." Is it really necessary to cover up such things?
As usual, i would present an reason to people's actions i consider as bad to try and empathise with them. My reason would be that these people are scared that if they really were to say they did their revision and they scored badly in the exams, people would laugh at them.
Pretty nice excuse i say.
But i should say that at such a young age these people are already so hypocritical, i can't imagine how despicable they would be in the future..
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Anyway, today did the De Moivre's test. Think i did badly again la, fourth in a row, very disappointed with myself.. But i'll try and redeem myself in the Promos.
And i saw a taxi driver who looks freakingly like Mr Koh..
*GASPS* Maebi Mr Koh really is..............
I'm not sure how long can i hold out in this state..
失眠
Insomnia again. Today got school somemore. Die liao la.
Won't say how come i get insomnia so much, dunno repeat this story for how many times le.
A little worried? Hahaz.
Anyway, found these words which can relate much to my experience..
失眠, 只是因为害怕闭上眼..
Crazy Thought
I suddenly thought of something.
Exactly who invented the pencil? The pencil certainly is a great invention, because for students, while taking down notes, should there ever be a need to rewrite the notes down(to be neater or something), we can simply rub away the pencil writings. Imagine, should pencil never exists, how messy our notes will be(for guys mostly la)!
And imagine those artists without pencil, they'll have to draw in pen, and should a stroke be drawn wrongly on a masterpiece near completion, how terrible that would be!
Clearly, the pencil is a great invention which we can't do without..
Yet, this brings out another question in me.
Exactly who invented the eraser to erase pencil writings? Could it be the enemy of the pencil inventor...........................
Stressed.
I have a feeling that if i were to fail or do badly for the upcoming De Moivre's Theorem test, i am going to be so depressed.
Cuz that would be the fourth time i did badly for this topic.
Think tue haf to resist the temptation of playing basketball.. I shall study instead!
Shit la. So stressed out.
Especially since family got war breaking out...
Boom.
Sept 11. The very mention of this date would probably remind people of the tragedy that took place three(?) years ago. But the truth is, would people still remember the lesson that was to be learnt? To keep the guard up on terrorism and always keep an eye out for suspicious articles or people in the public?
I don't think so. Perhaps there was a frenzy after the event that people became cautious and careful, but all these would have weared off after such a long time, and people are now living their lives as usual and contented with their own lot. Even i can no longer remember how long ago did this tragedy happened.
Yet, it is afterall, human nature to forget.
And perhaps the best weapon those terrorists have against us.
Ads
I am a little angry at those advertisers putting up their advertisements on my blog.
But thinking back, i believe those who read my blog are clever enough to know not to click on those links.
So i should just not give a damn about it..
Chained!
I slept! hahahz. That's like drinking water while you are in the middle of the desert, refreshing cool..
Anyways, i just tio a chain blog-mail. i better post it up or i'll die..
Message:
Muhaha, if you see this message, you have been cursed by the electromagnetic waves generated by this blog into your deep, beautiful and pathetic eyes. Yes, you will die in six days, which is more effective than watching a expired videotape that is basically advertisement for a hair product.You must spread this message to at least seven people or more and you will suffer a death so horrible I can't really describe it. Note that if the message is sent in snail mail form, no stamps will be provided. I highly recommend Gmail! It provides quite a large number of inbox space, and you will never run out of space containing chain mails like mine.
Yey, i won't die liaoz.
Yey.
This is probably what i call a roller-coaster ride ba.
I managed to help avert a second argument between the two adults(their actions r more like kids). Which means i have to keep doing that for the next few weeks or so. Hopefully, it'll turn out well.
But what's making me happier is that... she not angry. Whoa. Maybe i can sleep in peace tonight.
Maybe~
Help?....
When i opened this blog, i wanted to start it happily and entertain my readers and make them laugh. But as i walked home a total emotional wreak, reached home to see the chaos.. I don't think i can smile anymore.
Woke up in the morning to realise i have yet to do my work. I told myself:" Its ok, i should be able to finish it during the breaks.
I went to lecture and realise i was losing the pace; gradually not catching what was going on. I told myself: "Its ok, i'll be able to catch it up soon."
When i did something stupid and i think i made her angry, i begin to panic. But after much thinking, i was able to cool myself down and tell myself: "Things will work out, if it doesn't, its ok.."
As i walked home, the loneliness just sets in, like i'm fighting the battle against stress from work, stress from peers all alone.. I lost my cool finally when i reached home to see two adults fighting over who to pay the bills.
My mother and father, 2 40+-year-old grown-ups, married for over 20 years, arguing over who to pay the bills.
What the hell are they doing?
What the hell does it mean that she's not supposed to pay cuz he is the male and he's not supposed to pay because she is working liaoz.
Where the hell is that sense of responsibility you 2 taught me? To share woes in a family.
AND NOW YOU TWO ARE PUSHING RESPONSIBILITIES.
Why can't the two adults be sensible and sit and talk, instead of hurling insults at one another?
Why can't i even find solace in my home? Why am i stupid to make her angry? Why am i so stupid to be lagging in work?
54 hours without sleep le.. Probably another 6 hours ahead..
I feel so.. alone..
Guess who is backkkkk~
Yes. No one, but the irreplaceable, ever-crap-talker, unable-to-not-blog WEIYUAN.
Woot. Hahaz. The reason I'm back? I am no longer stand the days without blogging! Miss those days when i feel sad and posts something sad on my blog, people start saying nice things to me; and when i hate someone and scolds that person on my blog, people comes onto my side, so shuang sia all that attention. Its so damn terrible whenever i come online and realise that my blog is shut down le, so instead of letting myself suffer such torturous torment, I have open this new blog! Wow. Very impressive right? Hahahz.
Anyway. A lot of things had happened during this blog-less days, like the recent class outings, the staggering number of couples in my class, my impressive results.. It'll be a month if i were to recount these events, but I don't have the time of course, PROMOS in less than a month! Goodness.
Here's starting with my results. B,B,D,D. Not very good, neither is it bad. At most I'll be force to drop a subject if i get bad Promos results. At least wouldn't be retained la.. Now for my class, i can only say that it TOTALLY ROX. How rox? As hard as a rock ar. Forget about me complaining about the class before, I love them now la. Hahaz.
Of course, since I'm still a young kid, i have my love life.. This is a new blog, and since I am become bold, hence, i shall make a big bang -I SHALL CONFESS MY LOVE FOR...........
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Kelly! Don't give up! Although you have lost to Weilian, I am sure you still have a bright future ahead as a singer!
