Update!
"放下笔， 望着窗外那因为换季而落叶的树。 不知不觉地， 我把手放在玻璃上， 像是要捉住那些掉落的叶子, 捉住秋天的尾巴， 捉住她渐渐远去的背影。
桌上的信， 内容写的是爱她的心， 地址写的是她心底。 不知道， 她收得到吗？"
Had a meet-up with friends as celebration for someONE's birthday.
I think I have a knack for ordering food that I don't like.
Tired le. Off to bed~
Civilisation
I don't know, some people just don't understand - or perhaps, can't take - jokes. When you crack a little joke on them, they retaliate with the full force of meaning to hurt, and you're left wondering, is the level of bluntness, bastard-ness and low-EQ-ness you were at when you made the joke, without knowing it?
Hmmm.
I hereby conclude that Jurong is overrun(supposed to be a past tense but, is there a past tense for this?) with uncivilised and crude people. And it's not just due to the fact that I stay here, butthe fact that the people I bump into, literally, never apologises and always give me a it's-your-fault look when I stare at them.
Like today, I was carrying food and a packet of hot drink when this rather fat ang-mog lady bumped into me when overtaking me, causing the hot drink to spill. What's worse is that she simply walked on.
Fatigued due to a hectic work day I obviously didn't have the patience to stomach such grave grievance, hence I gave a loud, but not THAT loud response in the form of a 'HEY'.
She heard it, turned around and gave me a it's-your-fault look.
At that moment, words such as 'fat b*tch' or 'oversized whore' and everything that's vulgar and associated with obesity and promiscuity(yes I know, contradiction but angry people don't really think logically; actually they're not thinking at all) ran through my head. I didn't, obviously, say that because there's still some humanity left in me that tells me that if any of those words come out of my mouth, I'm the one in the wrong.
So there I was, left alone to get mad by myself. But like every other emotion of mine that blows up at the slightest provocation, here I am after the incident, thinking "Why in the world did I get mad at something so trivial?".
I need some serious anger management.
Murdered
Today is the most tiring but fun day EVER. Morning played basketball till a bit tired already, turned out in the afternoon I needed to do sai gang-clear out all the old lockers and smash everything that is wooden.
In the end, there was only me and my 2 sergeants doing all these for the whole workshop.
Why even my sergeants are doing sai gang? The nicest thing about my section is that here, everyone does work together. It is not like every other sections where the ones with the rank gives the order and watch the underlings struggle in the work.
Which probably explains why our section was pretty known for being the most zai(steady, in S'porean terms) section; until now of course, since there's only 5 of us left with loads of trouble.
And I said it's a fun day despite carrying countless heavy lockers over large distances because throughout the course of the sai kang, the 3 of us did certain stupid stuff, and we had the luxury of being extremely violent to the things we normally have to take care of.
See, technicians are always repairing stuff; so when a chance comes for destruction, we hold nothing back.
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I think I'm kinda desperate for a girl after seeing how other people can simply call up their girlfriends to 诉苦. I've never really whined to a person(whine as in, 掏心掏肺的 kao bei), because that would mean letting my guard down. And psychologically speaking, for someone who has hardly trusted people in his life, letting his guard down becomes nearly impossible.
Sadly, no matter how desperate I am, it never seems to translate into concrete action. the closest i got to desperate was a few years ago, stalking and messaging random people on Friendster(closer friends would know how I stalk ppl muahahaz), which is an act I personally consider as loserish.
Since I like escapism from the fact that I'm a loser, I avoid doing stuff that I labelled as 'loserish' and hypnotize myself that I'm in fact, the most eligible bachelors around and girls just don't know how to appreciate me. Wahahahahhahahaha.
S-Pop!
Moi mood now is like, woo-hoo~ It almost feels like I'm in love but I'm nowhere near being in love as me being as handsome as 吴尊
Nevertheless, S-Pop made me a very happy(albeit still ugly) man. It's like 2 whole hours of good music; even the noobish singers sounded listen-able and surprisingly, it was the oldies that were the best.
My favourite was the part where 黎沸辉 sang with his 'disciples' and Dreamz FM's two songs. I practically had the goosebumps with Dreamz FM because hearing such goddamn nice voices coming from faces more hideous, if not, equally hideous as mine, is simply amazing.
This is the reason why 不值得 is one song I've never taken out from my MP3 player/handphone.
Kelly's Shakalaka Baby was the rat shit of the broth(some Chinese idiom), probably because seeing a bamboo pole dancing wasn't exactly entertaining since we are not pandas(and~ I just saved the Artic from melting). However, her 一秒钟的永远 gave me the goosebumps.
Plus I notice this special thing about JJ Lin. His songs on CD are pretty normal, but when it comes to live performances his songs seem to become nicer by about, er, 27,000 times better.
Laziness knows me by name~
I've uploaded the photos taken on the day Kok Mun leaving for Taiwan to my album!
It was looking through those photos did I realise I'm so. Damn. Dark.
Today is like the boring-est day.
Didn't have any mood to do anything.
And when I don't have any mood to do anything I'm in a bad mood. Bad mood sucks.
BAH.
你... 你... 你人尽可夫!
Watched the first episode of <斗牛, 要不要> on Youtube. Er, basically it's like the same thing as 换换爱 since 贺军祥 is, again, acting as an arrogant, rich and good-looking asswhipe; difference is that now, the male lead dunks and the female lead is equally rich and spoilt.
I think the basketball scenes were meant to be damn cool and all, but certain parts turned out hilarious instead due to the overwhelming exaggerations involved.
The only redeeming factor about the show is 贺军祥 and Hebe(duh), since both of them are very comfortable to look at. I like the way Hebe addresses herself as '你爸的我' - in other words, the Chinese version of lim peh - when talking and using '糖醋鱼' for replacements of vulgarities.
Funniest part that had me almost fell off the chair was her using the wrong idiom to scold 贺军祥.
I think I'm going to have a hard time finishing the show, because I have to tahan the bad storyline just to see Hebe. What's worse is that she is going to kiss 贺军祥.
糖醋鱼 de.
Of weak ankles and weak socialising
FOK MAN. I sprained my leg AGAIN.
Recently, I've been spraining my right ankle at the most impossible circumstances, like going down a bus; a tell-tale sign of that weakening ligament, which has already tahan-ed several major sprains already, weakening further .
I know one way to prevent my ligament from tearing is to simply avoid sports, like basketball. But the thing about sports is, you can have a slipped disc OR some other chronic physical injury and still want to play, because "the pain goes away when you're playing"(quoting someone with a slipped disc AND some other chronic physical injuries); it's like sniffing glue, spamming alcohol or taking heroin if you can't relate to my feelings.
Still can't? Nevermind. I'm sure Wei Liang knows what I'm saying.
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Everyone has their own ways of coping with loneliness. Computer geeks cope with that by spending even more time playing games, some turn to clubbing to fill that gap while many others simply make themselves more sociable to expand their social circle.
My way of coping is simply living with it. See, I tried the way of trying to be more sociable, but I realise that my character doesn't allow me to: there's always that innate reaction of me that puts me on guard towards any one, not that I'm afraid they're going to harm me or whatever, it's just a natural reaction that doesn't allow me to open up to strangers.
This is why my social circle of friends is so damn small. Plus I'm not the type who'll jio firneds out. Like when I feel like buying something, I simply go off by myself because it doesn't make sense to me to trouble someone to accompany me to buy somethign thatonly I'm using.
Or like when I'm going swimming I don't jio because to me, it's not like I'm doing synchronized swimming to need people to accompany me.
Throughout my entire life there wasn't much moments when I didn't felt lonely, and there was that little pessimistic part left in me that was convinced that even if I die no one would've cared.
It is only during the later part of this life where I have learn to not feel sad about being lonely; and to be glad for those short moments with that small group of friends - the only ones I'm convinced that will remember me even when I'm no longer around.
PS: I must apologize for the random and very 跳跃式 form of blogging that results in these posts containing 2 entirely different events talked about, because that's how my thinking usually goes and it's been especially active recently.
James Blunt
A few days ago I made this randomly honest passing comment to two of my friends that when I saw both their girlfriends pictures(their profile's picture had couple's photot, not that I was checking on their girlfriends), I thought they looked the same.
Of course both girls don't look the same at all but because my associative memory(or my memory as a whole) isn't good at all and both girls are strangers, they appear similar to me.
It was funny judging from the response it garnered from the guys. But then I realise if their girlfriends were to hear something like this coming from a random guy, chances they'll feel like screaming at me.
I know it doesn't really affect me directly(or even indirectly, or even at all for that matter), but it really does goes to show how low my EQ can get - guys laugh at such comments, girls don't; gotta keep that in mind lest I really do offend more people, especially chio bus.
I should learn to be less blunt and less honest about opinions man.
Whining~
I think I'm like the bravest COS ever. I mean, I actually walked into dark areas to check out weird noises in the middle of the night and showered @ ungodly hours when there's absolutely no one left around.
When the going gets tough the tough gets going.
Going home, that is.
Nov/Dec is supposed to be the time when most NSFs clear leave and enjoy. BUT WHY IN THE WORLD AM I FEELING LIKE I'M WORKING IN A HIGH-KEY PERIOD?
Wa lan oei, the moment my section-in-charge left, all the tanks manned by my section break out into a state of anarchy, and major faults start turning up. In fact, most of these faults are so rare that even my sergeants said they've never done that before.
What's even more tiring is that we're not only simply doing the complicated faults on the turret, but we're also working on the hull and engine which is supposed to be a different class of technicians' work!
I think by the end of the year ar, me and my other 2 fellow turret technicians would have become the most experienced system technicians le.
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Heard on the news that some heretics had predicted that 21/11/07, TODAY, is Armaggeddon Day. As a result, some people hid in holes dug in the snow mountains or something along that line.
*gasp* THEN WE MUST ALL HIDE ALSO! HIDE IN THE BUNKERS DUG UP DURING WWII AT BUKIT TIMAH HILL QUICK.
SLEEP
I slept at like, 6Am this morning and woke up at around 4 in the late afternoon. Very productive day indeed.
Actually, calling myself an insomniac isn't right anymore, insomniac-ed should be more fitting. I mean, I still take like 2 to 3 hours to fall asleep, which experts(I don't know who but read it somewhere before) proclaim to be also a type of insomnia, but I think when you're able to get sufficient rest that's already good enough.
If I ever want more sleep all I need to do is to get tired earlier and go to bed earlier. Compared to in the past, this is so much easier for me now.
Too much sleep, brain ain't working either; I took like, 1 hour to get through a maze in FF10.
PS: I HEARD 回家 ON 综艺大哥大 AND BURST OUT LAUGHING. Sorry inside joke.
Of time wasted
"If drama is vodka, then our lives would be so very wasted."
-quoted, Jia Hui's blog
I feel that perpetual late-comers are self-centered people who have no respect for their peers, because they make those who wait for them waste precious time and effort and treat them like they're obliged to wait for them. I mean, is it really that difficult to try and make the effort to come on time?
What are the excuses for being late? Bus broke down? Lost track of time? Or in some cases, that they need time to put on make-up(for girls LAH)?
Maybe these are acceptable in cases where it's a one-time thing. But the reasons for ALWAYS coming late? Basically, you don't give a damn.
Like today, I was supposed to meet two friends at 1; one came after 15 minutes(already pretty off limits for me but I'm already used to him being slightly late PLUS I think he did tried to hurry), the other bastard came at like, what, 2.30?
I can tolerate such shit; but there was absolutely NO apologies whatsoever(I waited an hour and 45 mins goddamit) and NO effort to hurry at all.
I didn't show it, but I was downright pissed off. I mean, if you were normally the goody-goody type of person with the only flaw of late-coming I might have forgiven you; but when you're already having so many goddamn short-comings isn't it time you make an effort to improve one teeny-winny part of your freaking flawed character, and at least try to be punctual?
If I was still the straightforward person I was a few years back I would have said fuck you to his face. Too bad now I have far too many reservations to allow for such sinful indulgences(yes, saying what you want to say is an indulgence indeed, especially when you're constantly in a repressed state).
As you can observe from the above I'm pretty anal about punctuality. I can't say that I'm NEVER late, but I can say without guilt that I always make an effort to be on time. What I'm trying to say is that having the heart and making the effort to be punctual matters, because it's a way of respecting the person you're meeting.
If you ask me, I think punctuality speaks a lot about the character of a person, and I admit I use this as a marker to judge people. I must confess that when I'm looking out for qualities in a girl, punctuality is one of the major factor(as minor as it may be to many other guys), because I hardly meet any girl nowadays who make an effort to be on time.
Then again, I don't meet a lot of girls anyway. Plus I should be the one hoping that girls can at least notice me first instead of me being the one choosing.
I'm still pissed off at the bastard. Good thing for him I got enough rest for the past 3 days, so I shall 大发慈悲 and forget about this incident.
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Some guy from JJ's soccer team collided into the rag-and-bone auntie, whom JJCians often see around, and after 12 days, she is still, in comatose state.
I KNEW IT. It's always the same CCA, the soccer team, who creates all the trouble.
Gigantic
挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底 你能不能收到它
ABSOLUTELY love the way Hebe starts off the song. And how she ends off the song as well.
But after the obsession settles, I realise I like the song despite its boring-ness because the lyrics damn god-like. The image it creates in your mind...
Ok, Titanic is a good, touching, epic classic.
But having the ship sink like, 3 times already? Come on la Channel 5, spend a bit of those fat profits you sucked earned from the star-search contests and charity shows and give those screaming/falling/freezing people a break lah.
Anyway, Wednesday is finally here! Why am I happy that Wednesday is here? BECAUSE I'M TAKING LEAVE ON THURSDAY & FRIDAY!
Shiokenathan. What's even more shiok is that now happens to be high-key period - meaning there's tons of tanks(pun intended) to maintain - and this is quite a well-deserved break from the oil and grease.
Since moi mood is good today, thou shalt show you the most beautiful picture on Earth:
MUAHAHAHHAZ. What were you expecting?
My mundane life.
Joke of the Day:
Reporter: OK, so let me return to my former question. Why is this protest illegal?
Minister: YA! It's a illegal protest because we have the erection in Malaysia. It's no-no point on having a protest! We are allowing to every erection... every five years never fail!
-see kennysia.com for details.
Ok. One erection every 5 years? Kinda harsh don't you think?
Today is a bad day, even though I got the first life-time experience of riding in a moving tank.
I worked with a bad flu, had a hydraulic pipe burst quite literally in my face and as a result, was soaked in hydraulic oil to the extent that I had to change into a new pair of undergarments.
What's worse is that people keep coming up to step on my toes today, and I had to spent sooo much effort in just trying to make sure that temper doesn't burst out(like the pipe did). I made it, but only barely.
Otherwise those people would be the ones soaked in my wrath.
Virtues
Actually, I'm a loser.
In the conventional definitions, I'm in every way a loser: ugly, desperate, never had a girl before, always bio chio bu, self-centred, rotting at home and every other bad qualities of mine which isn't hard to spot.
But because at some point in my life, I decided to hypnotize myself that I'm not one, I'm still very much living life quite happily.
Which makes for the most important quality of a loser: not even knowing you're one.
*sigh* People hardly take you seriously and gradually, you don't want to and forget how to take yourself seriously anymore. So if you're reading this, let this be a warning: once a joker, you'll never be able to, and you don't feel like, be serious anymore.
But if you're happy and everyone else are, putting yourself down once in a while is pretty fine too.
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This is out of point but I just found out a part of the song, 蒲公英的约定, that has an extract from one of the songs from the soundtrack of 不能说的秘密! If there's 2 there's probably a 3rd. See if I can find another one.
蒲公英的约定
将愿望折纸飞机寄成信
因为我们等不到那流星
在走廊上罚站打手心
我们却注意窗边的蜻蜓
Goodness. 方文山 has god-like lyrics.
K-Boxing with Wei Liang and Sin Kuan!
Was a bit surprised cuz I used to think Sin Kuan was tone-deaf(actually, just thought she isn't as good but since I'm always exaggerating I might as well take it further) despite knowing her for so long.
Na bei end up both of them sing damn well and I'm the mike destroyer.
But nevertheless, tonnes of fun! Because I was combating a major headache, I went home and slept.
FROM 5PM SLEEP UNTIL JUST NOW, 0100AM!!
Swee~
FINISHED
At long last I've finished 18禁不禁!!
Technically speaking, I haven't really finished it; I stopped at episode 16. But because the way the episode ended with 小薰 leaving is simply too melancholic, I couldn't resist making it the ending I want: 阿杰 doesn't end up with 小薰 muahahahaha~
I'm so evil because as I progressed into the show, I realise that 小薰 simply gets more and more chio(especially the last episode) that there was a point when I almost wanted to have an extramarital(I always thought this word was spelled as extramaritial with an i, now I know which word I spelled wrongly for A-lvl compo) affair.
It was the toughest choice I ever needed to make in my entire life.
But seeing how 阿杰 cried till his eyes so damn red(hence, pretty convincing for a male actor in a stupid 偶像剧), I shall 成全 the two of them and not betray Hebe.
I'm getting psycho and 妄想症 nowadays. Must be the fumes and grease and smog from the tanks.
Songs~
Personally, I don't think he's gonna be able to do a song that's better than 精舞门, but he's the only one left who can dance real well.
罗志祥-一支独秀
Love this song. The beginning of the song is taken from an old song called 千言万语 by Teresa Teng.
林宥嘉-那首歌
The facial expressions a bit overdone though.
I have forgiven Jay for his cowboy crap, because this is one hell of a freakin' nice song. Although it feels very David Tao with the guitar accompaniment, the rap at the end of the song reminded me of 晴天. If you're finding the melody damn familiar, it's because you heard part of it in 不能说的秘密.
Plus the note is damn high; I think he's trying to prevent other guys from singing it to sien char bor.
周杰伦-彩虹
Na bei. You talented asswhipe.
KNN
FINALLY I AM HOME!
Stayed in since Tuesday cos of COS(Company Orderly 'Sergeant') duty and guard duty on Thursday. Staying in is a bit sian after staying out for so long already. But nevertheless, saving the time on trips to and fro home is rather refreshing.
And I encountered, er, stuff I wasn't supposed to see.. I was all alone in the camp(all alone, even combatants booked out, because following day was a public holiday) and walking to a certain dark area to wash clothes(it didn't occur to me that I should be afraid, then). I turned a corner and came face-to-face to the scariest thing in my entire life.
I totally freaked out and almost screamed.
It was a freaking bloody cockroach.
18禁不禁
It's hard but I'm constantly reminding myself that I'm very lucky already, to be given the best vocation a Pes C soldier can get and the best location I can ever have. Though it's difficult to get frustrated when you kenna OT out of the blue, like today.
Anyway. Now watching 18禁不禁! Actually, I didn't even know about the show until my sister went to rent it; and I wasn't planning to watch it until I accidentally saw the two of them:
小薰 & 小涵! Ok this isn't their best photos but somehow I can't find a good one.
小薰 is this 18-year-old cute girl from an act-cute girl group who declared her love for 罗志祥 publicly numerous times already, while I first saw 小涵 few years ago on 我猜我猜我猜猜; even back then she was damn chio.
But it didn't took long for me to realise that 小涵 isn't very 耐看 and I couldn't help noticing that 小薰 is slightly on the fat side. And also, I can't find their best-looking photos! That is quite a feat for the ultimate online-stalker like me. The best I could find was this,
and it's only because my wife's in it(though she looks intimidated).
PS: You might noticed I talked nothing about the show itself although I began the post with it; it's because there really wasn't anything much to talked about except that its pretty funny.
HERO
I wanna watch Sugar & Spice because there's Erika Sawajiri in it.
But I wanna watch Hero too, because I used to love it the drama series quite a few years ago. I remember the inspiring speeches and over-flowing enthusiasm for justice; I don't know why but I remember this specific scene at an overhead bridge where Takuya Kimura talked to Matsu Takako(whom I used to think is the most chio Japaneses actress, until I realize most of the Japanese actresses are chio).
Oh I also remember the ending credits; the entire bunch of them are like walking down the path of maple leaves with Utada Hikaru's Can You Keep a Secret playing.
Wa. Suddenly my memory like become very power.
Too bad it's always for the non-important stuff.
实不至名不归
When emotions are kept dormant for too long, you forget how to jolt them up again.
Then you forget how to feel hurt, how to love, how to live. You forget what it means to be human.
Finally, you forget who you are.
I was wondering why did the Singapore Golden Melody Awards were getting so much heat back a while ago until I watched it myself today.
Damn stupid can? It's like giving out the wrong prizes to the wrong people! Like giving Sin Yee a prize for being too tanned, Sin Kuan for worst designing skills, Wei Liang for being too serious and giving me a Good Samaritan award.
It's a lazy weekend for me, and I hate lazy weekends. Besides finishing 换换爱, going swimming and seeing weird guys in *horrors* white swimming trunks, I did practically nothing.
Soon~
FINALLY the weekend is here.
Did OT for most of the days for the past week; rewarded with an extra early book-out today due to CSSCOM's(Combat Service & Support Command) Anniversary.
Life's eventless and I'm basically still very much stagnant.
Soon mosquitoes will be breeding in my matching pipes.
我，百發，五十中哦~
OMG?
I'm seeing my wife with another man and I'm exclaiming at what a beautiful pair this is.
Damn.
This is like... a more good-looking version of the MVP情人(relatively speaking ar), with 贺军祥 and Hebe. But the presence of 颜行书 and 李威 isn't very attractive to me.
I still think Hebe more chio with short hair. Bloody ugly 颜行书 tried teaching her bball and TOUCHED HER HAND. Bastard. I hope him and 李威 dies or something like that halfway through the show.
