School~
Today we went to bai nian at Sophie's and jinlin's house. Turnout the same old people? Always the same people pangseh us one. Like lit***, or chi** we*, or jia** lohz~~~ Think they hate the class. Hahahz.(i'm joking lar)
Basically, its just gambling and mahjong lar, not bad not bad, think sSophie's dad damn powerful at blackjack lar, like everyone at the table was losing money to him lohz.
I didn't join in much, becoz i know how deep i'll fall into the pit of gambling. I'm those type of person who would lose-believe i can recoup-put more money de person, so the amount i can lose will be legendary. I'm always a legend in some way.
Mahjong, yeeloong and hongyi both one of the pro-est la.
Basket hongyi. Everything also excel.
Think i must find something to win him in.
I know i know. I'll win him in losing to people.
"Sianz. back to life."
-hongyi
M'sia truly Asia~
Yesterday's trip to M'sia was nice. For one, I think M'sia got more greenery than us la, why only we called the Green City?
OOPs(out-of-point), anyway, my Grandma's house is at Pontian, a good one-and-a-half-hour's ride from the 2nd Link. I basically listened to MP3 player and look at trees for like an eternity than will reach there.
The atmosphere there is very... amiable? I wonder if that's the word. The air there is fresher; my father's side Grandma's house filled with smoke and gambling; over here its just talking and joking among the adults.
I was damn bored, of course, but i think i had the sweetest of naps there; long time no sleep like that liaoz leh. Conversations with adults never went past "planning to do wad/how old am i/how's sch/got girlfriend".
Adults got no creativity one.
Even ang bao's also all like give the same Keppel Finance thingy~
After that, upon reaching S'pore, Mum wanted to go to the temple at Teban to do some worshipping thing. I wasn't keen on that idea, cuz the incense smoke stifles me. BTH. I went into the temple feeling like a tourist; looking around. I was pretty surprised to see young people there, and like very veteran believers like that. Wow.
Then i got curious of the incense. How did incestincense came about? Why its representation of offerings to the gods?
A quick search on incestincense didn't give much information, not like i expected much. Its just said to be aromatic and burned for religious purposes.
Aromatic? Not to me...
Maybe I'll start a research on it or something.
And i think those who practice Taoism a bit ke lian. Like have to take 20++ josssticks and pray to 20+ gods.
Later miss out one jia lat liao.
Zzzzz
Its 4.53am.
Just returned from studying at Mac with kokmun.
Nice chat... Brain cells mostly dead.
I keep thinking about my realisation, the angrier i got. Becoz the more i think, the more damage i think i have done to myself. The stupidity needed to make such a mistake. To have to experience it to learn it.
But now, i'm messing up thoughts over the same thing.
I said i wonder how long can i hold on with my condition, lack of sleep all that.
I really wonder.
Bustard
I just got...
Slapped in the face. Punched in the stomach. Kicked in the groin. Water over the head...
By myself.
I asked myself, "Why is this happening to me?"
Answer came out of nowhere.
"Because i took all that concern for granted."
Its so in-the-face. We speak of cherishing those aroud us all the time. But somehow, i just lost it...
Too late for regrets isn't it?
I really am a bastard, am i?
Back!
Sorry to disappoint...
But i'm back safely from M'sia!
Shall blog more tonite.
PS:I deleted i think 2 msgs accidentally without knowing who sent it... If u r reading this, can resend the msg?
插曲
Going M'sia tml. Falling sick le. Hope i come back in one
piece.
我明白我的地位。 我明白我的卑微。 我知道我不配奢求。 因为我是我。
我知道我永远都无法扮演她生命里的主题曲。因为我只是一个插曲。
而且，还是首没播完的小插曲。。。
No one cares.
Ignored
The festive season doesn't feel so festive.
For me at least.
Happy CNY's Eeve~
"man really needs love and support, i conclude.. its so impt when ur gg thru
hard times.. sometimes u jus want to know that ur not alone.. that an wei u get
gives u the strength to go on too.."
-Zhen Wei
I think i get what all these actions meant.
I'll just...
Shut up. Get away. Get out. Leave.
CNY.
Blogging from Sophie's house~ Play Mahjong!
Its the long-awaited Chinese New year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So damn.......... BORING.
Yup, CNY is boring. Call it erosion of the Chinese culture, i just find CNY a tad bit... redundant.
The tradition is that you have to go back to relatives house to say hi. Hello? One year say one time hello? What's the use in that? Each time i go back to my Grandma's house(S'pore one) i'll have to fake a smile and call every adult there, mostly i hardly know by how am i related. That's like totally going against my principle of not-obliged-to-force-myself-to-do-things-to-please-others lar.
Its painful you know.
The worse is when i go back to M'sia. The only relative i know there is my very nice grandma. Other than her, none i know le.....
But for the ang-pows, the sacrifice is worth it.
Lecher
One good friend will not leave you, till one day when u decide to kick him
aside.
-Hong yi
I am so damn proud of myself.
I am so proud that id ecided that i must blog about it to fuel my ego.
YES. I HELPED TO NAB A LECHER JUST NOW!
Damn pro and brave right?
Muahahahahhahahahaz.
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Ok. Thr problem with writing that it misleads people. Note the usage of "helped"? The incident is somehow... debatable on whether i helped.
It started as i'm walking home on the road near the HDB flats, then i saw this man fell down on the main road about 200m away from me. I wanted to laugh la, cuz his entire face planted on the road(the thought of it makes me laugh), but then i saw one female running behind, rather far away, but her voice can clearly be heard. Something was wrong, i looked back and saw a few men running across the traffic light.
Something in me just prompted me to start running, i don't know why.
The man crossed the main road and ran on the footpath about 100 m from the road i am in. Let me digress here a little.
Some guys on the footpath saw what was happening, know what is happening, and they simply look at the man run past them.
Ball-less wimps.
Back to topic, the man somehow turn smart and decided that he has a better chance in the flats, so he started to turn onto the grass that is between the footpath and the road i'm on. Here's the focus: by some plain luck on my part or he's plain stupid; the man saw the tall figure running with a packet of coffee in one hand and carrying a rather bulky bag on the road, and decided that he will not make it, and he doubled back.
I have absolutely no idea why he think he would have a better chance against a tired schoolboy than two burly Indian men, but the joker ended getting caught.
I stayed on for a while, fufilling the S'porean spirit and got to know what happened. The idiot was saw taking pictures of a group of girls in the toilet, how he did i don't know, but he's plain dumb to do it in wonderfully-packed boon lay mrt station.
I'm not exactly the hero who helped, i'm not even sure if i helped. If he continued running my way, i don't even know what good can i do la.
Maybe a packet of hot coffee in his face might helped.
Yes, i have a rather exciting life.
Loss
I am seldom at a loss for words.
A loss of what to do.
Whatever i'm doing now just seems wrong, stupid even.
I don't even know what am i going to type here?
Gior-Domination.
MacDonald's achieved its task of taking over the world; everyone knows about it, millions tasted its food, the MacDonald's restaurants can be seen in every shopping mall.
They called it Mac-Domination.
Giordano's shops can be seen in almost every shopping mall. Giordano made use of S'poreans most distinctive feature, and price their shirts at low prices; and they have 'last 2-days' sales that can span an entire week. More and more people are wearing Giordano shirts as a result.
Their slogan?
Ultimate tiredness.
Bball~
Izzit juz me stupid or is the Discrete Random Variable tutorial
difficult??
Just came back from a nice bball session with koksin and hongyi. Basically it rained like non-stop throughout, though initially the rain was just a drizzle. It really feels good to be running in the rain la; actually wanted to take shirt off as well de, but the other 2 got 'G8'-pac, mine United Nations cannot show, hahaz... Think my leg tio injured, very painful... Hope tml can get better.
I'm reminded of '零' the song. I think i can call it the song which i listen to most liaoz. Since last year september already start to like le. Now still listening to it everyday. Great song.
I'm surprised at how some people can conceal their emotions, no matter how sad.
I'm surprised at how fast things can take a sharp turn too.
CNY presents to my readers
SHE; 天灰
Jay; 枫
刘畊宏; 彩虹天堂
Dunno whether can or not... If canot oso bo bian.. hahaz..
PS: Limited downloads, limited time.
MTV
Just watched a few MTVs after getting really frustrated at GP. I ended up finishing a damn sloppy one.
Anyway, i shall just recommend the nice ones.
Firstly, is Jay's '枫' and 刘畊宏's '彩虹天堂'. I introduce them both together for a reason.
We all noe Jay. We don't know who the cockroach is 刘畊宏.
Well, 刘畊宏 was part of the band which Jacky Wu was(painful past for him i tink), but that's besides the point; 畊宏 is Jay's good friend, and this time, both of them collaborated to shoot the 2 MTVs of the two songs, with 枫 as Part one and 彩虹天堂 part 2. Very gimmicky. But i think this is the 1st time? geng hong a take a ride on Jay's popularity ma.
I like 枫's cuz the song is nice; i like 彩虹天堂's cuz the song fits the story though a bit luan.
Secondly, S.H.E's '天灰'. Unlike the other one, '月桂女神', which is cheesy, 天灰 is simple and nice. Story of a rather sickly girl.
Talk is cheap, maybe i can upload it then let u all dl. Try la hor.
Zzz..
Na beh.
Gp damn difficult.
Question.
One question to ask God.
Do you have one in mind?
I do.
Constant change. So it means that its changed le?
Brain Power
The mind is a very powerful thing.
Very cliche. But very true. How many times had you been surprised by yourself doing things that you thought you never could undertake? The reason, well, i'll leave it to the neuro experts.
Basically, the mind affects your performance; so how you think affects how well you fare. So many times i have failed to succeed in things not because of incapability, but the wrong mindset. School is one convenient example.
In school today, due to lack of sleep and lots of mugging, I was in a very bad mood(i was like that for the past few days actually). So i revised vectors with a very negative mindset. Somehow, that didn't work for me. None of what was studied went in.
All the way till the hour before the test, i decided that i should just try to change my mood a little, maybe i can do better.
Indeed. I probably can pass it now.
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Amazing? Ok la. Not the first time this happened.
Another example of how the mind affects you is when i get upset about something, everything else(no matter how mediocre) just seems to be pissing you off big time. Like in this case, i got sad and even the small problem of low(actually not low la) got magnified and i got sad at that as well.
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Its just a matter of what you tell yourself, how you tell yourself that determines the outcome. You believe you can, you succeed; you believe you can't, you'll fail. I've lost myself to sadness too many times to know how it feels. Like right now as i type this entry, i'm feeling sad as well; but i told myself that I should not let the mood affect the post(or else it ends up too pessimistic), so now i can type these in a more-or-less un-pssimistic entry.
Food for thought:
Update~
Wow.
I think i can pass the test. Becoz i know how to do question one.
Question 2 is no-brainer; becoz use brain also wouldn't know how to do. In my case, of course.
Well. Better than nothing right? I'm pretty contented le. At least i didn't waste sleeping at 12am and waking up at 3am to revise.
Probably blog later on. TGIF.
If my absence makes things more comfortable, i don't mind doing it permanently.
Tomorrow
Tomorrow's the Vectors test.
I shall see for myself, of those who said that they "haven study... die liaoz...", which ones are gonna get As and top the class perhaps.
And hence, proving that this entry is true.
Deep down. I hope I can be a hypocrite as well. Serious.
因为真的爱了。所以更难放下了。
2 days to Vectors~
I sat by the window and just stayed there, thinking and thinking.
And almost an hour passed without me knowing it.
Sometimes i wonder who am i. Or rather, which one am i?
There's 2 parts in me that speaks differently, think differently, chooses differently. Like when faced with a choice to make, the two sides in me just debates and somehow, one side wins.
I can even sort out which were the side of me that posted here.
I feel as if i have schizophrenia. The difference is that i can think rationally and let any side of me take control when necessary?
Maybe.
I'm pretty sure the side which made that choice was the side that wanted to sacrifice for the other party to be happy.
Sometimes i just feel that i should just be selfish.
Happiness~
ABSOLUTELY NO MOOD TO STUDY.
VECTORS TEST IN LESS THAN 3 DAYS TIME!
AND ALL VECTORS HOMEOWORK I COPY DE.
HOW?!*PANIC*
Partly becoz i keep having that miNd-boggling thought on my mind.
Fancy Specs Theorem
Before i went on to make my new specs, i have decided that i want something fancy. Something loud. Something to grab attention.
Not my style maybe, but heck, i want it to grab attention.
But i guess old habits die hard; i settled for something less... obvious, blue that is.
But but but, its still fancy comepared to the old ones, so i'll consider it as being conservative-fancy.
You might ask why did i have the mindset initially. Well, one reason is that i wanted a change. But that's a minor reason.
Basically, if i were towear very fancy and attention-grabbing specs, when people look at my face, they will no longer be shocked at the hideousness, but will instead, look at the specs and think how nice it is. Basing on human nature to judge people by 1st impressions, they will carry on to look at my face and think, "Well, that's not so bad.".
And there, I will "become handsome" without plastic surgery whatsoever. Just a simple trick of the human mind. Damn smart right. This shall be my fancy-specs-theorem! I've got my own theorem lehz~
Too bad. I didn't carry out the theorem in practical. But that doesn't means the theory doesn't work.
You can ask how i thought of that. Basically, its just seeing all those people outside wearing very attention-grabbing specs; mostly are rather ugly people=X
Zzzz.
As of my theory that when you get sad everything else gets magnified, it happened again yesterday(as in, mon).
My teacher had to ask for someone else more "tech-savvy" to solve some computer problems.
WAHKAO.
I AVA rep also so incompetent la.
Power.
I know its going to slip away. From the start. Becoz i didn't catch hold of it. Becoz i didn't cherish it.
Becoz i don't haf a choice.
And now that its beginning to walk away.
It juz hurts.
The race begins...
I'm putting so much stress on myself that even the month before 'O' levels weren't that... hiong.
Basically, every moment where i quiet down to slack makes me feel so bloody guilty.
Before the chemistry test last week, i was so bent on getting good grades that my hand was practically shivering. I had to close my eyes and calm myself and push the thoughts away; which thankfully i managed to do, so the test wasn't ruin by nervouness.
Why am i doing all these to myself?
For glory. I hate being looked down upon, and that's what happening to me. Looked down by my teacher that is.
Maybe he doesn't mean it that way, but 2 incidents happened before led me to the conclusion that he regards me as the redundant student, the one who-pulls-the-overall-grade-of-the-class-down, stupidest in class, laziest in class, most irresponsible in class and only-fit-to-be-AV rep student. I blogged before about the 2 incidents, but I know too well of its after-shocks.
All in all. I don't want to be all that. I don't want to be seen as a lousy student. I don't want to see the 4A people get all the good praises while i get the sneers. I don't want to be a BCCE student again.
Never again will I be over-looked.
Even if it means crushing myself half to death.
Even if it means studying every single moment of this year.
Even if it means sleeping 3 hours each day.
Even if it means i lose myself to this education system which i hated all this while.
Maybe, I just want to stop thinking about...
Kopi-boi Theory
hmmmm..
I have no idea how to start.
Ok, since i've been really chiong-ing schoolwork without knowing why i got that motivation to do something which is possibly the one thing i hate most, i shall use it as an example.
Ever wonder why you study? I believe you do. And i believe the answer's always, "Get into U and earn money after getting the diploma/degree/Masters/whatsoever Us give you". Very creative indeed. Seriously, when will you ever hear someone say, "Oh, I lurvvvve studying 'coz i get to listen to boring teachers for 6hrs++ in a school, do the tests that come bombing every month, memorise free radical substitution/nucleophilic addition/whether ethanol more acidic BLAH BLAH BLAH..." ?
NO.
I hate studying. But i don't have a choice. Maybe I do.
"You can choose to not study what." You'll say. But the choice that presented itself to me during the choice-making was:
B) You study. You feed your parents and they don't have to worry about their future since your ______(fill in whatever qualfication papers you have) will ensure you a job which pays a few more zeroes behind the paycheck of a kopi-boy; girls flock to you(even if you not yandao) since your ______ will ensure you a job which pays a few more zeroes behind the paycheck of a kopi-boy; you arefeel like the King Of The World 'coz your ______ ensures you a job which pays a few more zeroes behind the paycheck of a kopi-boy, you can give your parents a gd life and girls love you.
Its human nature to go for instant gratification and hence, choose those that at first glance which seems better.
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Let me put forward another example. Imagine you are a sad, lonely, full of grief, not-very-handsome, rather poor, not-much-abilities guy who likes a pretty, popular, happy,capable and rich girl. Imagine again, you and the girl knows you like each other. So the question is whether both of should get married.
The choices go:
Erm. Pretty obvious right?
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My point is that there are cases like this where you have a choice, but one is so bad while the other is so heavenly that the only logical/clever/duh~ choice is the better one. So that is as good as you don't have a choice. Of course. There are things you still get fair choices for, and you are responsible for the consequences yourself.
Newton's 3rd Law: For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction; for every choice there is an equal and oppposite consequence.
PS: I'm not discriminating kopi-boys, or sad, lonely, full of grief, not-very-handsome, rather poor, not-much-abilities people for that matter. And there are cases of guys hurting longer than girls, and yes, BATA shoes are lousy.
Happiness~
Spend the day outside with hongyi and koksin to shop for clothes.
Well, didn't get much, more fufilling was what happened in between of course.
On the way back on the bus from the G2000 warehouse sale we, or rather the both of them, gossipped a little about things.
What the topic changed to me and i talked a little it just made me emotional all over again.
And the problem with me is that when i get sad, everything else that happens after just feels like... its against me la.
Then damn sad.
Even as i clicked on the counter on the blog and see that readership is low i get so damn sad too.
SAD.
I need to sleep.
SHE, "我爱你"- 偶尔我真的不懂你 又有谁真懂自己
Clarification.
Contrary to popular belief, I didn't catch the S.H.E show that just ended. Maybe. I should tell you all why i like S.H.E despite my immense hatred for act-cute girls(e.g Sharon Au, so old still act-cute*faints*).
Ok, technically speaking i did watch, but only the first... erm, 4 episodes?
Reasons are simple:
Let's just start with the first time i saw Hebe fall down on a live broadcast of the News in Taiwan, then she fell down on TV again while bowling in M'sia, and her playiing of her phlegm(U noe the sticky ones that would 'hang' fr your mouth and you can probably extend it and suck it back?) but failed and it dropped on some working crew's head.................
Its impressible how a damn pretty girl can actually do such damn disgusting things. And damn, I don't hate her for that.
But the show introduced 龚诗嘉's "再一次拥有" to me. Nice song.
Coincidence?
The best songs are always those that are close to your heart or those those that so vividly, describes what you've encountered.
Recently, i've been bathing myself in S.H.E 's new songs. Yep, i regard their newest album as their best 'coz its much more... matured.
My favourite in the album is "不作你的朋友", not because it is describing what I'm going through now, but more of what I went through in secondary school. Its not accurate 100% of course, mine was a tad bit less painful.
你的眼中 看得见另一个人给的感动
But basically, seeing the one you like holding hands with her boyfriend just feels like an arrow to the heart; especially when she treats you as just an ordinary friend.
作不成的爱人 变成最好朋友
You knows what shocked me most in the song?
In the rap part,一直逃避 我以为闭上眼睛就能忘记
我的记忆开始在雨天的七月二十三慢慢经过
我们一起绕过的十字街头 怎么走都走不到尽头
July 23th was "the day where memories started to pass".
July 23th is her birthday.
Hydrocarbon Test!
I drink lots of coffee when i get stressed.
I'm drinking one each day.
I am going to be so sad if i flunk tomorrow's test.
One reason being I seriously studied for it.
The other being its the first test of the year.
Butterfly Effect.
And the onslaught of qi-ke-long-dong-qiang-dong-qiang over
the airwaves begins.
Today physics lesson Mr Chew was actively sharing with us while we ignored him something called the Chaos Theory. The"Butterfly Effect" is encapsulated in it as well. One sentence had sparked my thoughts.
He said, " When the butterfly flaps its wings somewhere, it upsets the balance of the world and creates a tornado elsewhere far." Or something similar.
What that made me think was that if that's the case, then whatever we do now would be upsetting the balance already. So maybe the world was not supposed to have us in the first place? If the world meant to support life, then surely the equation would include us to balance itself, right? Maybe there really was a more powerful being(by being, i don't just mean God or those) that created us here, which upset the balance on Earth. Earth may supposed to live for a few million more years, but it was us that shorten its life.
Pollution was never to be happening. 'Resources are not suppose to degenerate this fast. Its all in the balance.
Or maybe it did included existence of mankind in the equation of life; but it left out freedom of thinking and actions which meant that eventually, someone will act out of the rational course of actions.
Sorry. Just crapping. Just read and forget.
Update~
Random Ramblings:: I think the class blog ke me one.
3 recent posts all deleted.
Superb food at Jurong East with kokmun weiliang and yifan.
We then had a short chat at the Macdonald's regarding the just-finished Orientation.
To be honest, if i were not in this class, i certainly would have joined the OGLs, it'll be so fun lar.
The chat was very frank. I can never imagine anyone else who can be so damn frank to each other. Its like I can criticized anyone of them for wrong-doings without having to worry that this might hurt our friendship; because we are all matured people and we know it.
I'm starting to appreciate how precious these few people are to me.
Confessions of a teenage drama king.
I'm sorry.
I know apologies are worth peas, but i'm sorry.
I didn't make myself clear. Yes, indeed i feel that way about your blog. But hell, I'm just nothing.
Who am i to criticize u like that? That's your own personal space, why should i complain about how you manage it? I've been a real bastard to do that, and i regret doing that.
But i should also make it clear that NO, you are not one of those people whom i hate secretly. Not at all. Because i sincerely regard you as a truthful and reliable friend. Though you like to tease me about some issues.
Putting the 2 issues together in the post might lead to some misunderstandings.
But these are my true feelings.
Maybe i'm just reading too much into things, either way, its more safer to do this. I hope no one would understand this entry.
Zzz..
I possibly lost a friend due to my frankness.
Damnit.
I.need.to.shut.up.
僵尸３
刚刚看完僵尸３，对于结局其实还蛮满意的。
我不是那种要求一定要有结局的人。结局留下一些幻想的空间还不错。
整部戏好看在于新鲜感和紧凑性，effects那就别多说了。。。还蛮佩服地藏王的，慈悲呀慈悲，感觉他是整部戏唯一完全清醒的人（神）。
记忆虽会消失，但爱会留下。
听起来很伟大，但就算爱会留下，人依然希望自己能挽留这份回忆来享受这份爱。
因为，人性本自私。
I should learn to keep things to myself.
AAAA
Y IS EVEYONE APOLOGISING TO ME??
Do i sound angry? Actually I not as angry as i sound. Just a bit whiny.
I tot i made it clear already.
Maybe its really difficult to say your true feelings without any repercussions.
Life's Unknown
Imagine a day when you go out for lunch and ended up in the hospital. Very scary isn't it? Like it can happen to you anytime. It didn't happen to me, but to the old guy who fell down in front of me.
Went out early in the morning to do volunteer work by recommendation of dian xue. So me, kok sin, hongyi, xin rui and dian xue went to Bedok to raise funds for the Community Chest.
After a few hours of rejections and repeating the same sentences, we went off to take a break at the food centre. On our way back from the break, there was this old man trying to make his way down from the steps by using the slope meant for trolleys.
He literally fell down in my face; saw his fall from the corner of my eye.
The fall wasn't hard for teenagers, it didn't seem to hurt the old man. Until i(and hongyi, koksin and xinrui) went up to him to try to help him up. The horrors; the entire flap of skin on his hand was off. He was trying to 'put' the flap of skin back to place lar.
It wasn't exactly off his hand la, but you can see the different shades on his hand la.
He sat there dazed for a few moments, then started talking a little when we offered to help him up. I'll skip the bits in between, and eventually the few uncles standing by told me to help call the old man's family. I made the call; the shock in the son's voice over the phone was pretty obvious. Ambulance came in the end and took the old man to the hospital.
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I spend the rest of the day wondering if that will happen to me. Or rather, me in 40 years time. I climbed the stairs and wonder if i'll fall. I cross the road and wonder if i'll get rammed by a car. I ate prata at the Cheese Prata shop and wonder if i'll choke on the prata and die.
Luckily, i reached home safe and sound.
But accidents are not called accidents for nothing.
I slipped while i was in the bathroom.
Let it go dude, she never did and never will.
寂.寞
电视的嘈杂声。收音机的滔滔不绝。始终敌不过寂寞的歌声。 就算是听久了，也是不会习惯的。
Thinking of...
I think whenever the clock passes midnight, that secret door in my mind that leads to my archive of thoughts just automatically opens.
So much on my mind now that i think i'm going to be so tired in school tomorrow.
Read some blogs of my friends. Pretty shocked. Saw two of them, they were saying things like "always being alone all the time" or "wadever, who cares whether i have cried" sorts of things.
Hello ppl? THOSE R MY LINES. HOW DARE YOU USE THEM?
So before i sue you two for infringement of my copyrights, you guys better go back to happiness and optimism and give me back my lines.
Seriously, if i have to be the ultimate sadness+pessimistic+pathetic guy for the both of them to cheer up, i'll gladly oblige.
Scariest thing on earth.
I never was quite scared of ghost movies. Though when i was young i was, but now, i've dismissed the idea of ghosts as being remnant memories of those who have left the world.
Not much can scare me too, with the exception of cockroaches and Sharon Au.
But today, i saw something which scared me half to death.
Even worse than Sharon Au and cockroaches lar.
OMG. Someone save us...
Guess who's bac!
YES.
I am back. Better than ever! 'Cuz i'm no longer stuck with the measly 56K connection, but to 512 Jetpack!
Ok, not exactly fantastically fast but you should know how big the jump is for me...
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Being away for so long. Think everyone's forgotten about my blog le horx.
Actually, being deprived of internet for so long kind of made me accustomed to prehistoric life. Absolutely nothing to do at all during the holidays. Another good thing is that I had quite a few blogging ideas popping up here and there, and these would just bring me trouble if i actually blog it out.
During this period of imprisonment at home, i actually had many times felt the urge to call a close friend and just talk.
Sadly, my shy nature eventually gets in the way(yes, i am shy, really). Because before i pick up the phone, i'll be thinking like, what if he/she is busy? Wun i be irritating and like damn awkward? In the end i'll just go nah and continue to sit at the sofa and cry stone.
11.28. Chem revision exercises not done, better go work on them.
